Friday, December 31, 2004
i was closing my eyes and trying to sleep on the bus as i heard news from channel news asia.. bad news.. more bad news... even more bad news...
i haven't been really following on the situation after that tsunami unbelievable tragedy, until today. it's madness and you just can't help but moved seeing all the pics and stories about the victims. how a city just being wiped out like that.. more than 122,000 ppl died without any warnings whatsoever n those who survived lost all their possessions. can you imagine losing your everything??? your house (yes including your comfy bedroom, pc, tv, ps2, clothes n fridge), no more schools and offices, the church (as in the building), your loved ones?? don't even know where to sleep, what to eat, what to drink?
tell ya, we are so blessed here to be blocked by the whole sumatra (indonesia). if this tsunami reached here, i think half or even whole island would have been gone.
natural disasters.. look at the list that i've found...
2004 Asian quake disaster - over 122,000 dead; 2003 earthquake in Bam, Iran - official casualty figure is 26,271 1976; Earthquake in Tangshan, China, kills 242,000; 1970 Cyclone in Bangladesh kills 500,000; 1887 China's Yellow River breaks its banks in Huayan Kou killing 900,000; 1826 Tsunami kills 27,000 in Japan; 1815 Volcanic eruption of Mount Tambora on Indonesia's Sumbawa Island kills 90,000; 1556 Earthquake in China's Shanxi and Henan provinces kills 830,000
dead bodies everywhere.. i can't help to think that life is indeed fragile, never even knew when you'll depart from this world. make sure that your life is meaningful, purposeful and ready to be called by our father anytime.
if anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need and has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? - let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.
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Thursday, December 30, 2004
~ ~ my head's spinning... it has been a hectic day, in fact since few days ago. rushing so many things in office, that just couldn't find any time to sit and take a deep breath.. well until now haha... anyway it's going to be 2005 soon, not really excited though...
met up with dewen and yanyan for dinner on tue which according to shirls.. weird combination. went to ajisen (broke...) and just errmm talking which i realized we haven't been doin =) yan was saying it's good to meet up someone from youth, wonder if we make her feel younger.. but i don't like to walk with them, they make me feel short- sigh.
wed was a tiring one.. reached germs house quite late, to receive a big bowl.. and i mean really big bowl.. of rice ahahah.. we're having meeting for youthdna,and i'm not surprised that they all commented i can eat a lot.. oh well i was starving, can't blame me. it was erm enjoyable, with most of the time me lying on the bed n fell asleep (pearline dun kill me). but i do think that they will make a good revamp to the website, cool.
alright going off to meet mei now ^^
--- am looking for a nice christian literature to borrow ---
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Monday, December 27, 2004
a long wonderful xmas week-thu 23rd dec
the noel noel was cool, mm clip was nice, drama was great (no room.. no room ^^), the total no of visitors and ppl receiving Christ.. a lot... what else can i say? wonderful day.
fri 24th dec
spent the day in office but surprisingly i enjoyed it. john suddenly messaged me out of the blue and we managed to meet up and went to the night ss together. haven't seen him for ages and he hasn't changed at all, being so supportive towards all the ss programmes hahah... anyway it's great to just sit back and be the audience, finally saw the dance (thank God for them dancing 6 times). xmas is indeed the time when ppl's hearts are opened again. and one thing that is just so true.. it's ironic when we give one another gifts yet not the bday boy Himself.
after that from nexus went down to eugene's house alone, felt angry at myself for being angry towards someone else.. oh well holy spirit calmed me down, besides it's really nobody's fault. anyway reached there to be confused by eugene haha he's giving me wrong directions thru the phone.. was thinking why the house so quiet, but the moment i opened the bedroom door... waa shipwreck... with mahjong, ps2, and etc etc, all cramped inside ^^
first thing that i did there was to spill the soup onto my pants and floor.. oops.. no wonder in most of the cards i was affirmed for bringing joy to the group thru my clumsiness and blurness hahaa... anyway it was not long then we started to pass cards and gifts around, and time to cut the log cakes! hendra was doing countdown.. 4..3..2..1..1..1..1..1.. well cos we have not really gathered yet haha... it was great except for the durian log cake arrrghh.. the smell was ndescribable... and they accidentally cut the choc cake with durian at the side of the knife, the moment i tasted it, there's this funny feeling in my mouth and tummy that i just had to run to toilet to throw everything's out, and begging for plain water... i think i gave eugene's mom a shock.. to me durian = vomitting.
Played mahjong then, but after winning a few rounds, suddenly just lost the interest in it hahaa
so i switched to that unbelievably hard to win wwe game... i was totally trashed by joe and also hendra... didn't give me chance to retaliate boo hoo.. gave up.. went to balcony instead to have a nice talk with jus and roy. that's a really nice place to sit and far from all the noise made by the others. we shared a lot and i guess i got a bit emotional as i recalled one of the biggest disappointment i had in my life. hendra came to join after that.. followed by mei2, shufen, joe, eugene and bao.. haha we ended up sitting in circle and talked from A to Z with cup noodles as supper (thanks to our so hospitable host). it's amazing that we could have so many topics from backsliders, homosexuality, dreams, scary moments, evil spirit and demons, etc etc until ermm almost 6 am? haha... and the 4 young ones still playing mahjong (let's give a clap to yaoguo, joel, veron n valerie)
it's really a fruitful night spent, ended it with comedy of me scolding joel for giving me 'henge' -_- ......... took a small corner in the room and slept my way thru the morning...
sat 25th dec
we looked a bit dead, most of us went home to sleep, but i made a trip to orchard instead. why would i be so crazy? hmm accompanied my dear sis for shopping.. slept like a log at night.
sun 26th dec
recharging my battery.. nice weather, peaceful... until alvin, michael and mag came to cook hahah... anyway it's another great day.
reason 1:
team hope end year meeting cum retreat! all the shopping and preparation for steamboat was funny, i made some clumsy mistakes again with the tau-pok flying all over the kitchen hahah.. .bloated.. especially with the choc ice cream n log cake at the end of the day also. we got to know one another better again. so glad to have you guys as my leaders and for wanqi welcome to the club! revelation: alvin and peter can really eat ^^
reason 2:
someone was so sacrificial to come down and fixed my pc hahaa... well tbk gave me this new hard disk and basically he just made sure my pc can work as how it supposed to be. it's alive and well now, and i need to save up to buy a piece of land to repay him hahah..
reason 3:
the keyboard left in RC. never realized how fun it is.. in one night we have so many new keyboardist...
christmas has ended, and really wanna thank God that i could spend it with so much fun and purpose, with this family that i have. our father is really a great one, happy birthday =)
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Tuesday, December 21, 2004
phew just finished writing lots of xmas cards, xmas is all about giving and i think may it be shopping for someone that you know dear or writing cards and affirmation to those around you who more or less have made an impact to your life.. is just a wonderful feeling. well just don't look at your wallet or bank account, cos there's a big hole there.
anyway am excited about all the upcoming xmas celebration. from the church wide, to the unit, and also team hope end year meeting cum celebration ^^ can't wait man.. it's so blessed to be able to enjoy this festive season with all the bro and sis and in any event wherever or whatever you do, God is there too... anyway what is Christmas without Christ right?
^_^
let me make a recap on last sat ss.. it was amazing with ppl flowing in like ants. well it did give me a headache, all seats occupied.. ppl sitting on staircase, africa room was filled.. even the recept area! i was there during praise, and i tell ya it was an unbelievable sight to see all the ppl in recept area praising God like mad even though they couldn't even hear pris leading (which led them to sing one beat faster ^^) it was really really fun... bet the atmosphere inside auditorium was even higher.
anyway three claps for all ppl who were involved in the production. susi can rest now =) many ppl crossed the line of faith amen, praying that they will stay and grow and realize how amazing it is to know God and serve Him.
sun cg was very funny. according to eugene, full of anti-climax with me and baowei as stars of the comedy, bao with his 'not at the right time' or should i say 'right note' song, and me with the he he he... can't help but laughing remembering that hahah...
last note: thanks to all who helped in reviving my pc, well at least i can listen to my songs collection now ^^
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Saturday, December 18, 2004
waaa.. this is the day and we have confirmation of more than 1000 ppl with almost 400 visitors. well by God's grace pls no chaos later..
i find this very amusing, have to stay back in office where basically i got nothing else to do now (as i've finished what i need to do) and all my colleagues not around... and my mind just constantly running for xmas ss and preparations, with my hp keeps ringing every few minutes.
anyway i feel very excited now... it's like 3 hours to ss...
--- g r a c e --- how amazing it is that God can use some of us who are really simple, full of fear and inadequacy, inexperienced ppl to do so many great things for the kingdom. i had never imagined in my life before that i could do all the things that i'm doing now, same as all of you who are reading this now. so blessed by hope that made us learn so many new skills and teachings, and most importantly to give us the chance to serve the Lord and thus have a purposeful life.
question- what would i be doing or rather what kind of life would i lead if God didn't bring me here?
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Friday, December 17, 2004
as xmas draws nearer, i've found myself to be more and more 'paranoid' - my mind can't stop thinking things that need to be done and coordinate. well if you're wondering what the symptoms are:
- you keep scribbling into your notes... to do list, checklist, etc etc
- you check your email constantly, like every few minutes
- keep thinking who to sms, to email, to call
- trying hard to remember if there's anything left out.. slipped from your mind
- can't really focus on doing one thing
this is bad... you need well erm i need to stop and rest my mind.. besides xmas is all about really seeking God and bringing others to also. not just about leading and coordinating (which sometimes we tend to focus on more)
though i don't have much time to do everything, but blessed cos i got lots of helpers (that's where the coordination comes from hahah) God just blessed me last night with the games prizes, am so amazed how i could find all the things and deco ppl helped me in decorating the paper bags and they are just sooo pretty with those silver and golden ribbons. well it made me realize also why i could never be in deco team hahah...
1 day to xmas ss- musical drama. praying and fasting for everything - for all the ppl involved, all the way from stage to backstage to mm room to recept area, for those who work hard day and night, may it be seen or unseen by others, but God sees. it will be a great one tmw, expecting overflow and big party in heaven =)
PS. guys! particularly lim zhi wei, don't hide behind the chair or door ever again.. grrr..
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Monday, December 13, 2004
worms argh... really frustrating, can't even keep my pc on for 10 min.. at times like this, can only think of our expert gerald haha and yah he did give a solution, hopefully by tonight i can have full extermination. and thank God i didn't really lose any data after i upgraded to xp.. phew thanks hendra.. so blessed to have these ppl around =)
my friend is sick and here i am in office doing my work alone, facing the wall, finished everything already dun know what else to do hmm.. just received a mail that i've been waiting for ages this morning, praise the lord. it's just wonderful knowing how He really provides everything for us. shouldn't worry, waiting and praying in quietness and trust..
been reading the book of revelation lately, accounting your life. that's one book that will make you ponder a lot dun you think so? anyway am embarking on 'every young woman's battle' now, so interesting. do a lot of reading ppl, it's a good habit.
-- welcome back charlene ^^ was so glad talking to her last night.
thinking >> xmas.. the services.. the invitation.. the coordination of volunteers.. the cards and gifts..
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Saturday, December 11, 2004
a day of remembrance--
was talking to my old secondary sch friend this morning, recalling something that happened 10 yrs ago.. can you believe that we have reached the age that can talk about 10 yrs ago?? anyway the conversation soon turned to marriage issue... hahaha it's just funny.
anyway today is eve's last day.. oh man we're gonna miss her big time. had our last marcom meeting just now, it was great, as usual me, jerel and hannah erm drove her crazy =) she reminded me of few things... and one thing that really captured me was passion. yah sometimes we don't really give our best, to me bulletin is like secondary... i think more bout team hope. should have put in more effort.. without realizing, i've been in this ministry for almost 3 yrs? from chao hui to eve and now serene. though not many really appreciate what we've been doing (well own up, who really take bulletin, read it, keep it?) but God sees our heart, our hard work. i really wanna affirm the marcom ppl, it's just so great to work together with this bunch of ppl.
no more scolding from ET? hmm.... all in all thanks for your life eve!
ended the day with late dinner with germs, set dresscode and talked and talked.... just too bad no chocolates... hee
thinking >> there are some things that you just shouldn't think of
feeling >> sleepy again, but i have to bathe first -_- zZz
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Thursday, December 09, 2004
to have time to sleep is a blessing, feeling extremely sleepy now... so i guess will take a nap soon.
make it short: the incredibles is very nice. after stubbornly telling myself not to watch movie till jan, at the end... haha.. i should have known i got no self control in this kinda thing. anyway it's a great time spent, woe to someone who had to wait for columbian drug dealers and missed the show.. alright i'm getting cranky.. last night stayed at susi's haunted house... did a late night reading, could hardly wake up in the morning. but overall it's fun.. fun...
listening >> salvador's collection
thinking >> iPod
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Monday, December 06, 2004
ywam-4 without justina, wanjun, eugenia, and joelle ^^
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Saturday, December 04, 2004
what a week... conference is done and many of us almost died haha nah kidding.. the truth is many ppl are blessed, though it's true we need rest now. with God's grace, suddenly i have to wake up early in the morning to do something that is fruitful, long awaited job... it's a great new experience.. and time passed much faster than usual. learnt a lot of things, and thru-out this week God has been blessing me abundantly that the list can just go on and on...
really appreciate the hospitality team also, though it's a short conference, but it's just great to get to work together. this time i could really see great mobilization.. anne did a great job with the housekeeping team (thank God that party poppers were easy to clear up ><); joe and all the coordination of ushers, all things were taken care well; ding ting and the medical team, didn't get to know the team, regret this hmm; and daniel yah with the spirit of excellence in taking care of pastors haha... not to mention huimin who did a wonderful job and with great wisdom taking care of the very last minute holy communion...
can't take a person to build a kingdom... we work as a team and i'm so glad we are a team. hope to work together again.. =)
all in all it was a great learning of foundation again.. i know God is reminding me, sometimes you just need to go back to the basic.
gifts from TCT -- i tripped, i almost fell down (that sound room's door... really dangerous tsk tsk), i knocked to something, got blue-black again, very tired physically but refreshed spiritually. amen. till next year--
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