Tuesday, January 30, 2007
nicole will stone me for this, but i'm actually proud with what i have accomplished. 10 straight hours of full concentration from last nite 9 pm to 7 am this morning (no sleep is needed) to clear my ivalice journey.
i have officially finished the long accursed game!! bwahahahahaha!!
oh man i feel so happy whenever i completed an RPG, it's like a marathon runner reaching the finishing line.
now i can rest.
million thanks to roy, gerald and justin to make this happen =p
you need to buy PS3 to play FF XIII.. that is one crazy investment.
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Sunday, January 28, 2007
i'm marvelled.i guess i have to thank borders for giving 40% discount that eventually led me to step into borders and went back home with a few new books that i've never heard before (talking about taking a risk in shopping).
i've just finished reading 'the kite runner' by khaled hosseini seconds ago. i couldn't remember the last time i teared so much just for a fiction.
it's a story of a man from afghanistan who spent almost his entire life in shame and guilt until he finally found a chance to redeem himself, to face his past and be good again.
i could picture every page of the book in my mind... gosh i love it so much.
it made me think again about lots of things. thanking God that i'm in spore, i can see, i can walk, i can bathe, i can eat anything i want and for all other millions of things.. but on the other hand, i'd like to experience a life like none other, living in africa or middle eastern countries, where you see all the heartbreaking tragedy and inhumanity. it's contradicting.
who would in the right mind wanting to live in a place where blood spilled in every corner of the street?
perhaps i'm crazy.
i watched 'babel' yesterday nite, it's just one of the rare night that YG actually asked me out for movie.
shirls and him kept making fun of my recent deafness but we totally enjoyed the time together, including the 1 hour waiting for the cab. the movie was good but the company was better. guess sometimes i do want a little brother ><
spent most of my previous week lying on my bed sleeping. the flu got quite bad and i just had to take MC, my ears were (and still are) totally blocked, especially with all the ear-drops given.. i can hardly hear things now, sometimes the silence is deafening that it becomes quite scary.
got myself an appointment with doctor next week, he's going to 'fix' my deafness. meanwhile everybody gotta bear with me which can be frustrating cos i keep on saying things like: "did you say something?" or "huh?"
with that, i think it's a miracle that i could do my mm duty this morning.
i had a great time in worshipping during the rehearsal on fri. as i was just sitting down comfortably in one corner of africa room closing my eyes, lyrics of 'your unfailing love' just flowed into me.. asking Jesus to come.. wanting His unfailing love to fill me again. what a great song. not to mention how gerald played it so beautifully. sigh.
Feb will mark a new beginning again. the big restructuring that i just found out thru email today.. a new group.. amazing. not sure what i should think of it.
plus the spanish class.. i'm so glad that i signed up for this one, can't wait for the class to start.
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Monday, January 22, 2007
the best place to go around my office is the toilet, simply because it's warm there.i feel sick. really sick.
i wish i have a pillow now.. AND a thick blanket.
last nite i slept without a blanket and i guess that's one of the most stupid thing that i've ever done.
the good news is i had a better dream, with me being one of the final fantasy character fighting the monster is definitely better than seeing another person die.
3 times in a week is more than enough.
thinking about the great faith that one should have.
i simply love how Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego responded to their test
"O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up."
remarkable.
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Saturday, January 20, 2007
my fave dance by my fave couple from my fave show:that left my mouth wide opened.. look at their legs...
i think i should start taking dance classes too. tango! LOL.
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Friday, January 19, 2007
i dreamt of someone's death again last nite. this time is another person.this whole thing is starting to creep me out.
i wonder if it's actually a reminder from God for me to treasure ppl more.. or is it to treasure my life more.. or is it just pure nightmare?
anyway, apart from the dreams, week has been quite great.
i managed to have a talk with my 2 best friends back from high school days yesterday, lily and julie. both of them are in sydney now and it's been soo long since the last time we talked that i didn't even know lily has given birth to a daughter!
i couldn't believe it.
julie asked me to make a trip down to sydney to visit the baby. haha. that's quite a good idea, i should really do it.
3 of us had a great talk and it's just so amazing, for a moment time turned back to 7 years ago.
on separate note, i totally enjoyed the cg last nite.
finally, mei is back to the 'guitar business' and she was nervous! LOL.
susi took time from her busyness at work too, so happy that she's there ^^
i looked at the ppl in my cg and i began to feel so blessed.
there are many things happening in my life, the good and the bad. sometimes it's just how i look at it.
foolish is the person who depends on self and not God. who am i to begin with anyway. ><
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
today is donny's birthday. it's amazing thinking how old he is already now. so i sms-ed him this morning, something that i seldom do. we talked about final fantasy XII LOL. he's totally addicted to it, more than me. in fact, he just gave me a long distance call just to talk about it ><
i think i'm a very bad sister, considering how seldom i think of this brother of mine.
though it's not that long, i do remember the time when i stayed with him in jkt, he's the one who once made me fall in love with guns n roses.. introduced the soccer world to me.. lent me his pc just for me to play championship manager.. gave me the idea to buy the first PlayStation (and i should really thank him for that).. brought me to eat LOTS of delicious seafood and dimsum meals....
now that i think back, i am so similar to him. perhaps the reason why i like to do what guys like to do more is because of his influence.
no wonder ppl say that elder siblings will indirectly shape you.
sigh. i can't wait for september. the big family reunion on my brother's wedding day ><
and after that we're going to turn bali upside down bwahahahaha.
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
life has never been this real.i've been thinking a lot on leaving this place.. recently. was talking to cara the other day and she gave me an idea to take up english teaching course that may be able to secure my life if i ever live overseas.. in latin countries.. or even perhaps third world countries. i don't know if i can survive there but just thinking on what kind of experiences that i'll have makes me excited. spore is great but i started to think that my life is doomed here.
had a talk with a friend yesterday, a very amusing conversation. it gave me a realization that i could be such a blockhead. there are many things in life that i never seriously consider and years just passed me like that. i'm going to be a quarter of a century soon.
so i went home and talked to shirls about my so called idea. i wonder how my parents would react.. oh well, it's not going to happen anytime soon anyway, first i need to get my PR here and save some money, take up some courses, and perhaps i'll try to find a life companion who is willing to go for this adventure with me.. LOL.
i went to bed with lots of things in my mind and strangely i dreamt of death once again. i have no idea why death likes to visit my dreams so much. this person whom i've been holding dear was lying on the hospital bed and dying.. giving me some last words. it's really terrible.. i cried and cried.. i woke up and kept on crying in the toilet, not even knowing why. it's not even real. i guess it's just the fear of losing. perhaps.
so i told myself, "get a grip livi, you don't want to show ppl your swollen eyes"
i should have read the bible before i slept.
i saw hannah the moment i stepped into office this morning. she's back from her long holiday in england, her face glowed as she told me that she's pregnant. wow i am so happy for her.. it's like.. finally!
cecilia was trying to give her all the food list that she needs to avoid and it's just so funny seeing them. i couldn't help but to smile.
i entered my room and kris was there waiting for me, she's thinking of finding another job that can suit her better. i had a talk with her about directions in life, enjoying job, having a fulfilled life. and the talk reminded me as well.
birth. studies. work. marriage. death.
what a terrifying cycle.
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
wa man.. i gotta blog this down.'blood diamond' is brilliant.
i think the movie is too under-publicized which i don't understand why. good acting, good story-plot. and it gives guys excuse not to buy girls diamonds in the future. ok that part maybe a joke. but in conclusion, for a movie that left something deep in my mind and heart, $9.50 is cheap.
i'm not sure if there will be any movie better than this one for 2007.
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110 is the episode of a new beginnnig, no more fillers ^^
patience pays off.. at last, we are back on track
phew~
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Thursday, January 11, 2007
underestimation kills.i learnt that last nite as i progressed with my FF.
after spending hours at the shrine and was getting ready to go to the saving point somewhere nearby, i met this seemingly harmless normal monster who at the end wiped out my whole team.
it left me stunned for at least few seconds.......
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.."
*pull hair*
BAKA!!! ><
i still have no idea how i could make that stupid mistake. why did i walk that side? why didn't i run away? why didn't i use my best skills? why didn't i revive my fallen comrades first?
too late.
sigh. surely all gamers can understand this feeling of dying before saving the game for hours.
this is just a game but somehow it made me think about something else.
we tend to regret on lots of things in our lives and ask the question "why didn't I?"
there's no answer to that, only the terrible feeling.. knowing that we cannot turn back the time.
sometimes we just have to be honest with ourselves. why did i do things that contradict my mind, why did i say things that i don't really mean? why didn't i think carefully? what do i want? what do i feel?
life without regrets.
is what i want really what i want? is it what God wants as well?
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
Spanish Language Course (Basic)Dates: 24 Feb - 21 Apr (Every Sat except 7 Apr)
Time : 3-5 pm
Venue: America Room, Nexus
Cost Fee: $100 per person
this is so interesting... the best part is the fees collected will be channeled to support Hope Quito missions so we are helping the church as well.
i must get a life, so i'm seriously considering taking up this course haha.. besides spanish is a good language to learn. i may need it one day..
thinking of church planting, it's easy to say but hard to come to pass.
how can i go for church planting if i don't even go for missions trip? how can i go for missions trip if i don't even outreach here in spore? how can i outreach here if i don't even tidy my life properly?
everything begins with the heart, the desire and the faith to make the step.
will there really be a day that i leave spore for His kingdom? i wonder.
i read someone's blog and started to think about certain things again. once a fool always a fool. i am a fool too. we gotta get a life and move on.
the best part in my life has yet to come. it's in the future.
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Friday, January 05, 2007
taking some time out to blog in office LOL. been quite slack these few days, guess we all haven't really got out from the holiday mood.for new year's eve, the whole unit went down to OCC for in-house celebration. YF booked 2 nice rooms with a mahjong table right in the middle (amazingly i did not play at all)
i spent the whole afternoon talking to mei beside the swimming pool, what a good place to chat for a phleg person like me.. so relaxing. puay n shufen tried to psycho us to swim with them, but to me staying dry was a better option =)
and yes, pearline kong is back in town!
met her up for a good lunch and shopping on tue. felt like yesterday when she left for aussie to study, one year has passed in a blink and now she's here again.
really glad to see her, lost some weight and grown more mature.. hahaa... talked to her about certain things that we never really talked about before, from relationship to investment. making money. family. future plans.
i am so looking forward to our overnight date. more food and more sharing!
thinking about resolution, i don't think i have any. new year is not the only time that we can have a new beginning. it begins from my own determination to change certain things in my life.. and it does happen from time to time.
some things will never change though, for example my love for games and anime HAHA.
i am an otaku, i have no life.
started this year with FF12 and just within 5 days (today is the 5th), i found myself extremely sleepy, tired and haggard. it's kinda scary seeing myself nowadays, trying to compete with panda.
anyway i decided to come back to earth yesterday to do some other things that had been piling up at home (laundry etc). gotta be more balance.
* i am still contactable through phone and msn
one hand on ps controller, one hand to type msn. queen of multitasking =p
working in squaresoft was once my biggest dream
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