i learnt that last nite as i progressed with my FF. after spending hours at the shrine and was getting ready to go to the saving point somewhere nearby, i met this seemingly harmless normal monster who at the end wiped out my whole team. it left me stunned for at least few seconds....... "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.." *pull hair* BAKA!!! ><
i still have no idea how i could make that stupid mistake. why did i walk that side? why didn't i run away? why didn't i use my best skills? why didn't i revive my fallen comrades first? too late. sigh. surely all gamers can understand this feeling of dying before saving the game for hours. this is just a game but somehow it made me think about something else. we tend to regret on lots of things in our lives and ask the question "why didn't I?" there's no answer to that, only the terrible feeling.. knowing that we cannot turn back the time. sometimes we just have to be honest with ourselves. why did i do things that contradict my mind, why did i say things that i don't really mean? why didn't i think carefully? what do i want? what do i feel?
life without regrets. is what i want really what i want? is it what God wants as well? *livi* 1:54 PM
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livi grace melinda
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love everything but durian