Thursday, January 26, 2006
a thought from work-wanted to vomit blood in office seriously.. there's some problem with a product's delivery that i have been waiting and chasing for days, calls after calls, mistakes after mistakes (from their part) that i felt like giving them a piece of my mind. i had to take a pause, a deep breath, listened to a praise song, thought of something good, before i gave them a call so that i wouldn't sound too hostile.
you know what, it works. that's the thing about having a moment and think before you act.
i hate to flare up, losing control of myself, cos i know i'll regret the things that i said and done. we just gotta process it in our mind before it comes to reality.
nobody wants to be scolded, so i'm trying my best not to scold ppl as well.
watched memoirs of a geisha with shuz last nite, she's very excited. seems like almost everyone has watched the show so she couldn't get anyone to go with her hahaha.. i didn't plan to watch it at first, don't really like zhang ziyi. but anyway i enjoyed the time, first time having one on one date with her =p
the movie itself is not bad, pity that it's not in japanese and not tragic enough.
ok i'm off for my first reunion dinner with cg at chinatown. think again, it's going to be the last one as we're having a restructuring soon.. haha.. don't know what to say.. a change in cg again. i can really get used to this whole adjustment business ><
happy chinese new year to all.. i'll be away from town for a week. ciao~
• • • • •
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
my determination - practise regularly!i shall not be lazy anymore man.. i want to improve! *nod nod*
it's not the first time someone commented that i look better in bright colours. this gives me even more motivation to lose some weight (esp after cny) hahah... oh well.. i don't mind signing up to some aerobic/dance classes or simply jog more, but at the end of the day i think i will still wrap myself up in black being a dull person after all.
everyone's busy with shopping nowadays, guess i'll shop more when i'm back hometown, considering how cheap it will be. i'll bring an empty luggage home and come back here full =p
went to far east with shufen n puay on sunday, it's one of the rare days that i felt like shopping. met mandy there, then mei2.. then shuz.. and many more.. spore is such a small place. my heels were killing me and i went home almost limping.
went for a short shopping again last nite, bought things for all the relatives back home. shirls really enjoyed choosing and arranging the goodies, i told her that she can apply to work in supermarket or library if one day she got fired. haha but that won't happen of course =p
rights, it's been 3 mths.. guess it's time to set a date with alex tonight ^^
listening >> mr beasley (unplugged) - corrinne may
if only i can play this. sigh.
• • • • •
Friday, January 20, 2006
gotta blog this while it's still fresh. just came back from the event support appreciation night, and this time it's really purely appreciation for whole church volunteers. i'm amazed and so blessed with the effort put in for this event, didn't quite expect it. really wanna thank God for dasmond, i was actually hesitating to come since i've 'retired' from team hope, but he was really sincere in inviting that i just couldn't say no haha.. saw a lot of people there, eevoon is doing very great =)so we walked to this clubhouse at farrer park and surprised to see a setting of gala dinner (it really felt like a wedding dinner). the place is really not bad and there's even a stage. three claps for the MCs and i'm really thankful for the short sharing given by pastor dinah, not to mention the heartfelt appreciation given to each ministry, not a single left out. everyone has contributed much to support the church, front or back. i was very much surprised when my name was called to receive an appreciation award for long-term service (is that the name), guess i was a bit blur. anyway actually i think a lot of ppl has served in church much longer than me haha.. but i'm glad that i left a legacy in youth.. somehow.. yah ushers ministry has been part of my life since the first few weeks of me being in hope, the team hope ministry as my labor for years. did i make an impact to the kingdom? have i really used my life for God?
i thank God for giving me this family of event support department.. the leaders, the team and mostly to dasmond for being such a father figure all these times (though he's not that old actually haha) btw congrats for his new baby gabriel yeah ^^
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
to make it complete, i just received a call from rachel to confirm my new involvement in multimedia ministry soon. will be doing more towards lyrics and sermon slides, feeling very excited for it. serving God is just so exciting, i can never just sit down and relax. so blessed~
• • • • •
doomed.since d-day is approaching (7 days to go), me and shirls are trying to revive our forgotten indonesian language by starting to communicate in it with one another. it's a mess!! hahah.. i can't help but to laugh at her.. she sounds weird. oh well mine is not much better actually =p
by the way ng3b3, the xmas photos are up on ng3b3 multiply, memorable indeed~
feeling very sleepy again now.
lesson learnt this week : appreciation. treasure-
and... how important a guitar is.
listening >> behind these hazel eyes - kelly clarkson
• • • • •
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
hey, this is very fun!!http://www.planearium2.de/flash/spstudio.html
my daily expression.. sleepy and grumpy..
that's when i receive a cheesecake or ritter sports' rum and raisin ^^
ermm.. queen of pain? hahaha... that's when someone intentionally or unintentionally step on my toes.. i can imagine myself saying "OEI, wat's your problem?" with that pic.
ok this is my version of my dearest friends-
left - susi : after hip-hop dance prac, eating her fave ice cream from shufen's nz shop!
mid - pearls : that curly hair of hers haha.. couldn't find basketball, so soccer ball? orange is so her...
right - germs : after school? she can be that demure (yes though it's hard to believe) and she does carry umbrella more than me. her hair is always tied nicely =p
what an entertaining program~
• • • • •
Sunday, January 15, 2006
what an interesting gathering i had last nite. went for dinner with johandri (my high school friend who's here for holiday), he was not alone though, there were 3 other people that i did not recognize. they didn't know one another as well, basically the only person that each of us knew was johandri the man himself. haha so these 4 strangers (including me) started to throw basic questions to get to know one another. all of us are indonesians and yes they communicated in bahasa indonesia, gosh.. i really found myself struggling, it has somehow become an unfamiliar language to me and it's just weird hearing myself =panyway we went to coca restaurant and yes it's expensive sigh. the food's not bad though and the whole night was actually enjoyable. a bunch of friendly ppl and i'm glad that i was able to share a bit about my life in church to one of them. he's working here in spore so maybe i can try to reach out to him more in the future.
i read something interesting again today, the book talks about 'reading people' .. well.. psychologically. 2 things that i really remember:
it's not what you say, it's how you say it
the tone is important. sometimes when we talk to another person in ways that we can't hear them personally, for example through sms or msn, we can get the wrong message.
'haha' can mean real expression of joy or it can be an awkward laughter out of nervousness or even a sneer.
'i'm fine' can be a joyful i am really fine or it can be i'm not fine but don't bother me again as i will not tell you anything.
different tone has different meaning. think again, it's always best to counsel face to face or at least on phone. cos at least we can hear the other party's voice and yes their tone. it makes a difference.
sometimes things aren't what they appear to be
we just love to jump into our own conclusions. bad habit. i think sometimes it's insecurity problem, you start to wonder and wonder.. and mostly are negative thoughts. or perhaps you make an insignificant thing to something, making a hill out of a mole.
hmm that sounds really familiar to me.. hahaha.. will i ever learn?
• • • • •
Saturday, January 14, 2006
time to put something down.haha my boss has finally approved my leave, he's not that heartless after all. feeling very excited for this coming chinese new year, it's been almost 4 yrs since the last time i went back to jakarta. my cousins are even way more excited than me, they kept asking if it's confirmed and have planned an itinerary for me and shirls! i can imagine how packed my days will be, all the places to go, things to shop, good food to eat, fantastic view from my house in bandung (on the top of a hill or is it mountain ><)
haven't seen my relatives for quite some time and at last i'll get to see my brother's fiancee. somehow it's funny how we've all grown up, that brother of mine.. getting married? feels amazing..
speaking of which, one of my high school friend is here for holiday. i haven't seen him for almost 6 yrs.. my.. i was thinking about it and suddenly it all came back to me, the high school days. it was so fun. i miss them, my friends back when i was still 'young' and 'stupid' haha. i remember my two best friends who are now staying in sydney, the tough lily and the sweet julie.. we were inseparable in those days.
i remember this guy who loved to play basketball and he's very very good in it, used to be a good friend of mine as well. i wonder how our friendship fell apart, i wonder where he is now, how he is and if he's still playing basketball. i kind of regret not having my pic taken with him at the end hahah oh well.. it's really a good memory.
can we have a reunion one day, now that we're all scattered to so many different cities and countries?
God is faithful. when i look at my life, He really is. i love to recollect my memories and thank Him for those.. but yet a man lives to move forward and i believe that there will be more and more greater things ahead, right God? something to look forward to? =)
• • • • •
Sunday, January 08, 2006
hahaha... well ladies and gentlemen, this is justin =p
(this post is of course approved by him.. so funny)
ok i shall go back to mitch albom's the five people you meet in heaven. gosh i've been reading a lot.. a lot.. a lot of books lately. my mind is full.
• • • • •
Saturday, January 07, 2006
hahah.. i'm not sure how much he's being paid by ben & jerry's, but roy made this very interesting poster (yes he made it himself). apparently he found a new web that can allow us to make our own poster, modify your own pic, add some words etc. there are other posters sent to me but i think some are.. not suitable for public showing =p
spent the whole afternoon at science park today, it was time for newbelievers party. well at first cara called me to come down early and help out in sound. gosh i am clueless about sound but she assured me that it's just a simple one. i reached there to realize that my help was not really needed anymore (for sound) so she put me in charge of the matchsticks (the candles event) hahaha.. well basically more or less like an usher job to me, guess it's true.. once an usher forever an usher =)
anyway there were quite a no of new believers, somehow we're all reminded again of basic things. having a childlike faith, persevere during tough times, resisting temptation that may come, being God's ambassador and spread His love, having a family in church and encouraging one another. sounds simple but sometimes we are just not doing it.
i'm really glad for angeline and ronnie for being there and seeing them wanting to walk this path with God whole-heartedly. i'm sure that as time goes we'll see many fruits. not just from the newbies, but from all of us, from me as well.
God.. i want a sheep.
listening >> revive me - jeremy camp
• • • • •
Thursday, January 05, 2006
i've never thought there would be someone leaving which i considered as a good riddance, but that's exactly how i felt towards one of my colleague. my.. speaking of love and patience, i think i still fail after all. as much as i tried to bear, i really hate talking to him, most of the time when he started with his egoistic nonsense, i'd prefer to keep quiet and left his room as soon as i can with two hands up. but today he's simply ultimate, stormed into my room, gave me his resignation letter, complained here and there and stormed out again.. adios. gosh he's just gone like that without even telling my boss (for information i'm the one in charge of HR as well) and leaving a pile of mess to us. arrgghh have i mentioned how much i hate irresponsible ppl, well besides liars of course, there's nothing more detestable than liars. oh well never mind, i've seen and experienced worse. may the Lord forgive my evil thought and heart.
in another one month there will be another person leaving overseas for years, but this one is definitely not a very good news. sigh my good friend, though i think i cannot announce it to all yet, but i promise that this month you will be my priority (well apart from cg, ss... haha) it just dawned upon me today how much i will miss the presence. lots of things under planning for the so called farewell, am somehow sad yet excited at the same time.. yah..
listening >> small enough - nichole nordeman
• • • • •
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
resolution: to sleep more? hahai've come to a conclusion that it is quite useless to make new year resolution, not that setting goals for a year is not good, but goals can be set anytime with a specific time limit. discipline to stick onto it is the one thing that i simply cannot do. sigh.
bet everyone had a wonderful weekend. it was raining on sat, but me, grace, bao and alaric decided to go for ice skating in the afternoon. the place was unbelievably crowded, not that it matters since i can't skate at all =p spent the whole 2 hours struggling to move forward.. oh man it was terrible.. thank God grace let me hold onto her and the guys checked on my progress once in a while, tried their best to teach me, i fell down only 1 time.. what an achievement! haha... i won't go for it anymore seriously, the whole thing is giving me body-ache. good experience nevertheless..
we met eefuang and went to eat jap food for dinner (what a nice meal to end 2005) followed with ice cream at shufen's place. she knows me well indeed, i didn't need to tell her what i want and she mixed me a chocolate and rum raisin thickshakes.. aaahhh ><
anyway i'm glad to spend this time together, all the talk and jokes yah..
reached home to find the house empty, my first time welcoming a new year alone and it was surprisingly good. i was listening to some of my fave pnw songs as i lied down on my bed and recalled the year back. reflection and thanksgiving unto God. my heart was at peace, calmer than ever.. cos somehow there was someone else with me, talking to me, laughing with me... what a new year with God..
woah i just love Him =)
sun morning ss was filled with a no of 'zombies' haha the leaders had good time at malaysia, susi bought me a pair of earrings again! aaww she's so sweet, she never forgets me in any of her trips. we had a long talk over the coffee table in the afternoon before i reached home to find out there would be a LOTR risk showdown in the evening =p it's a 2v2 game, really funny that me and dewen discussed our strategies so openly in front of our 'enemies', eelee made a big blunder but shirls' troops were anointed with great strength. not long after ethan, jerel and daniel aka 'the one who runs with his arms behind' came as well.. i let ethan took over my broken soldiers and changed my attention to dota instead. (by the way to justin: daniel was the one calling you a pig, not me haha)
didn't sleep a wink that night as we ended the games rally with mahjong all the way. went straight to airport around 7 am to send eefuang off to china. brought a book with me for journey reading but i should have known that the moment i read the first line, i fell asleep on the bus. airport early in the morning feels good, suddenly i remember the days when i loved to go there to kill my time.
spent the rest of the day at chinatown, we went to alaric's house for another mahjong session -_- gosh i wonder how many rounds i played in total within 24 hours. some others played a new card game which i've never seen before, i believe it's exciting considering how much noises they made =p
reached home by 10 pm and praise God i could finally end my 40 hrs non sleeping mania.
in conclusion: i can't do without sleep after all.
***
i read somethin interesting-
to love at all is to be vulnerable. love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. if you want to make sure keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. but in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. it will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... the only place outside heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love.. is hell.
C.S. Lewis, The Four Loves.
• • • • •