i've come to a conclusion that it is quite useless to make new year resolution, not that setting goals for a year is not good, but goals can be set anytime with a specific time limit. discipline to stick onto it is the one thing that i simply cannot do. sigh.
bet everyone had a wonderful weekend. it was raining on sat, but me, grace, bao and alaric decided to go for ice skating in the afternoon. the place was unbelievably crowded, not that it matters since i can't skate at all =p spent the whole 2 hours struggling to move forward.. oh man it was terrible.. thank God grace let me hold onto her and the guys checked on my progress once in a while, tried their best to teach me, i fell down only 1 time.. what an achievement! haha... i won't go for it anymore seriously, the whole thing is giving me body-ache. good experience nevertheless..
we met eefuang and went to eat jap food for dinner (what a nice meal to end 2005) followed with ice cream at shufen's place. she knows me well indeed, i didn't need to tell her what i want and she mixed me a chocolate and rum raisin thickshakes.. aaahhh >< anyway i'm glad to spend this time together, all the talk and jokes yah..
reached home to find the house empty, my first time welcoming a new year alone and it was surprisingly good. i was listening to some of my fave pnw songs as i lied down on my bed and recalled the year back. reflection and thanksgiving unto God. my heart was at peace, calmer than ever.. cos somehow there was someone else with me, talking to me, laughing with me... what a new year with God.. woah i just love Him =)
sun morning ss was filled with a no of 'zombies' haha the leaders had good time at malaysia, susi bought me a pair of earrings again! aaww she's so sweet, she never forgets me in any of her trips. we had a long talk over the coffee table in the afternoon before i reached home to find out there would be a LOTR risk showdown in the evening =p it's a 2v2 game, really funny that me and dewen discussed our strategies so openly in front of our 'enemies', eelee made a big blunder but shirls' troops were anointed with great strength. not long after ethan, jerel and daniel aka 'the one who runs with his arms behind' came as well.. i let ethan took over my broken soldiers and changed my attention to dota instead. (by the way to justin: daniel was the one calling you a pig, not me haha)
didn't sleep a wink that night as we ended the games rally with mahjong all the way. went straight to airport around 7 am to send eefuang off to china. brought a book with me for journey reading but i should have known that the moment i read the first line, i fell asleep on the bus. airport early in the morning feels good, suddenly i remember the days when i loved to go there to kill my time. spent the rest of the day at chinatown, we went to alaric's house for another mahjong session -_- gosh i wonder how many rounds i played in total within 24 hours. some others played a new card game which i've never seen before, i believe it's exciting considering how much noises they made =p reached home by 10 pm and praise God i could finally end my 40 hrs non sleeping mania.
in conclusion: i can't do without sleep after all.
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i read somethin interesting-
to love at all is to be vulnerable. love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. if you want to make sure keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. wrap it careful round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. but in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless- it will change. it will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable... the only place outside heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers of love.. is hell.