i woke up this morning feeling sick and tired. not physically. but mentally. or perhaps emotionally. the room was so quiet and lots of things suddenly overwhelmed me.. the people that i have met, the ministry that i have done, and there was this sudden urge of wanting to get out of this place.. to another country, to meet other people, to have another life. but i don't have enough money, or perhaps i just don't have enough guts to do it. to just pack and go. anyway, where do i want to go and to do what? and eventually, i will miss all the things that i have here. i began to wonder how things have changed, or how i have changed. i have become older, stronger but more stubborn as well.. i want to be more independent. i have so much differences in my thoughts compared to others.. and i am not that willing to keep on quiet and follow like how i used to be. there are many things that just don't seem right but i can't put them into words.
i need a good shower and a good worship. yes worship will work... God always do wonders. *livi* 11:38 AM
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livi grace melinda
14/02/82
love everything but durian