Wednesday, October 31, 2007
i was watching eureka last nite when i suddenly felt hungry.. didn't want to go down to buy supper so i tried to find food in my room. there were a few slices of plain bread (must be left by my mom who came to spore few days ago), so i took a bottle of sambal ABC and filled the bread with it.. brought back memories.. i used to do this back when i was a student, so broke and not much money to eat.
plain bread + chilli = good food.
i have just collected my new IC this morning. it just felt weird. i was not as joyful as i thought i would be... nevertheless i still thank God for this gift that He has given. i guess the question now is.. what comes on next? now that He has 'granted' my wish, is there anything more?
oh well.. i can't remember what i have been busy with nowadays. facebook.. eureka.. did planning for xmas party.. had the privilege to try out support singing for cara.. sent jus off with roy.. had nicee cakes from fave italian restaurant at clarke quay.. watched dance with my mom.. planned one crazy proposal for a guy who seriously need help.. LOL.. i can't believe that i'm doing this.. but i'm happy for the couple =)
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Saturday, October 27, 2007
sunny mentioned during the previous district meet about reflecting one's life, how all things are connected and divine.. according to God's purpose. nothing is coincidental in this life. i began to do recollection of my life journey.
there was a period of time that i wanted to enter poly, accounting course in NYP to be exact. i know it sounds crazy.. accounting course.. what was i thinking? but anyway i didn't get in as my maths was not good enough. i ended up studying in informatics. was pretty much disappointed but nothin could be done.
so as a result, i joined youth support group when i came to 'hope', got to know jaslin whom perhaps one of the few who has made the most impact in my life. she 'forced' me to join ushering and thus i ended up being a floor manager and team hope leader.
she 'forced' me to become a shepherd, cl and so on and on as well..
because of my ministry involvement, i ended up in ywam and got to know nic.. and that's why i am in her cg now in adults group.. to be where i am right now.
everything's connected.
if i got into NYP, i would had been in NYP group under mandy. my life would have been really different.
it's just amazing when i think back about this. God has planned my life so well.
just like how i couldn't get the job at certain places cos He has already set aside the right job for me.
isn't it fantastic to know that your life is in His hands? we don't need to worry.
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007
when it's time to do house choresshirls and i try our best to have equal shares in this, but sometimes, she just managed to avoid cleaning duties...
scenario 1
i was cleaning the bedroom.. sweeping the floor... and she's sitting down on the bed reading manga from her laptop.
vi: "why am i cleaning the room alone? what are you doing there sitting with your laptop??"
shirls (smiling): "i'm trying not to get in your way"
scenario 2
vi: "today is your turn to clean the room.. i cleaned the room last sat.. what do you do?"
shirls (smiling): "I ... I affirm you"
shirls' note: wit wins the day! and above all, always smile! =)
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Monday, October 22, 2007
it was a fun weekend~i went for music prac on fri nite, decided to go for supper with roy n ron after that. so 3 of us took a long bus journey to roy's place to get his car before he drove us to c-nai, this nice HK cafe that ppl have been talking about... and the food is nice indeed =p
but i guess we were more happy that we could spend that time together, talking, rather than eating the food. it felt really long since the last time i had 'unhealthy' supper with any of them.
sat was slacking time at home.. somethin that i haven't done for very long as well.. watched what i've been wanting to watch, read what i have been wanting to read... reserving my energy for sunday.
as i was waiting in media room before ss started yesterday, i looked down to the auditorium and saw bao and roy doing their 'duties'.. it suddenly brought back very nostalgic feeling.. it's just good to serve together with these 2 brothers at the same time again..
bao mentioned afterwards during the late lunch with yanyan that he felt at home, to be able to serve with us again.. lol.
we sat at prata shop for hours just talking n talking.. then we walked to PS to meet pris and gerald.. and we continued talking and talking (seems like there are lots of talking going on lately)
we wanted to have dinner with justin but he was super late -_-
so we decided to do somethin pretty stupid first~
yan said "xi-nu-ai-le" and i thought we were supposed to make a sound of it... hahahahaha
that second pic of 'nu' totally made me feel like an idiot...
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hahahaaa... they look so funny.... i hope gerald won't kill me for this.
at the end weiling came to join us and jus finally came. had a small farewell for him since he's flyin off soon.
all in all, it was very fun.
sometimes you just want to hang out with ppl.. to talk, to share, to laugh and make a fool of yourself. my family of God is so interesting.
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Friday, October 19, 2007
a good result is not everything, but i still want it after allgotta be one of my worst day yesterday.. or so i thought.
i've made a mistake that will probably go down in history of my global office.
it really left me thinking, what has gone wrong and how can i do better?
the Lord says that we must be the head, not the tail.. i really wish that i can be the best in office, it really gives me confidence when i'm being trusted with great task and affirmed for what i have done well. but sometimes, the fact isn't so.
i left the office feeling defeated. seriously.
but as i walked to our combined cg venue, the song 'everything's alright' just began to play in my mind. i always remember this as my exam song.. everything's alright, i got Jesus with me... everything's alright, my Saviour's walking with me..
simple but true.
hey.. i've been through much more than this and God has proven to be faithful to me... why must i feel burdened now?
after spending some time praying and having a good discussion on the cg, my spirit was lifted up again.
i had a good talk with van on our way home as well, since she had some interesting questions. i really love talking to her =)
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
i can't believe how much time i've spent on facebook today.i signed up mainly out of curiousity to realize that most of the ppl that i know are currently addicted to this new site.. and i think i may be one of them now.... hopefully not for long.
anyway, i've finally attended growth and management class. met alex from indo group at the entrance and he actually thought that i was there to teach. he thought too highly of me. lol.
i need to sleep.
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007
result does not determine your worth i don't need to prove myself to God nor to others, cos my worth is already in Him.
it's true.. and it's great to hear this reminder from God again.
nothing in this world should make me feel less worthy, inferior compared to others.
the Lord wants me to know who i am, stand up for what i believe and simply be confident.
how easy it is for one to fall into a situation where it's hard to differentiate serving for God or serving for others to see. serving because we love Him or serving to increase our self-worth and sense of achievement.
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Monday, October 15, 2007
to continue the list of 'for the first-time in my life', i went for fishing last saturday... one activity that i could not imagine myself doing.
supposed to meet the gang early in the morning but i was totally defeated by monster Z.
reached bedok jetty around noon, the weather was really good since the rain just stopped.
i was still half asleep when i realized that everybody has started to prepare the baits etc... and not before long, nic caught 2 fishes at one go. LOL.
it didn't stop there, she just kept on getting more.. and she ended up as the best 'fisherman(woman)'.
everyone managed to catch some fishes and i wonder why i couldn't even get one. anyway it didn't matter, i ended up spending most of my time sitting down, looking at the clouds, helping the rest to prepare the baits and.. yawning... lol.
fishing = good time to sleep.
*brace yourself 8D2, our dear nic is totally addicted to fishing now. she may ask us out again for this soon. next time, i should bring a good book out.
after that, we went to MC's new house to fry the fishes that we caught which turned out to be really delicious... thanks to chef junhuang and his assistants. lol.
all in all, i'm so glad that someone enjoyed the day a lot. he even messaged us (indirectly) to thank us for the day. fruitful activity indeed =)
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Saturday, October 13, 2007
life is all about experiencing.yesterday me and shirls had a great time watching symphony orchestra titled 'single-handed brilliance' at esplanade. it was my first time and i would say that there will definitely be many more to come. yes we are officially addicted.
i gotta admit that i did not have that much faith in SSO in the beginning, but they really surprised me.
they started the night with a very beautiful barber's the school for scandal: overture.
the first few minutes kinda took my breath away... i loved it. it reminded me a lot of medieval era.. that same kind of feeling.
after that we had the main event which was piano concerto for left hand in D major by ravel. the pianist, alexandre tharaud, really played with his left hand only (obviously) and i think that's amazing. even though the piece was too intense and sounds pretty weird for me to appreciate fully, the guy did play the piece brilliantly as the title indicates.
they closed the night with rachmaninov's symphony no.2 in E minor.
it started slow and intense and went up to fast and joyful and so on and on.. it was so nice...
there was a part where the oboe sounds really really captivating~ i started to have images as i listened to the piece.. winter.. summer... swirling together... taking turn.
i found myself holding my breath as everyone in the hall did, the silence was deafening when the music went softer. i began to think that to breathe is a sin cos you would be bothering the ppl sitting around you >_<
anyway the conclusion is that i totally enjoyed orchestra and i'm going for more in near future~
ironically, right after the concerto, i went to meet weiling, shufen, bao, mei and es for something that i never imagined would do. LOL. we wanted to go to st james but since es couldn't enter, we decided to pay MOS a visit instead. my first intention was to gain experience and of course i wanted to hang out with them as well.
anyway i think the place was noisy, dark and creepy (first thought that came to my mind: perhaps hell looks like this) hahaha.. but surprisingly, i enjoyed the time too.
i tried to sit at one side and enjoy my delicious 2 glasses of rum but weiling just wouldn't let me go.. so i did what i haven't done for the past 10 years.. yup.. i danced... amazing. HAHA~
thinking back, it's just funny.
isn't it just great to try out something new? something that you have not done before?
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Thursday, October 11, 2007
there are times that i found myself entering the state of extreme boredom.in order not to think too much, it's good to occupy myself with a few things, which i have done these few days:
1. sleep
i've been sleeping more than usual recently.. which probably is a good thing.
2. researching on apologetics (homework)
as much as i tried to procrastinate for this, i just gotta start somewhere.. somehow..
3. checking out courses
thinking of taking exams but british council's english course is too expensive.
on the other hand, my friend asked me to join her for basic japanese class... which is really tempting, but i'm not sure if i'm willing to spend money for this.
or perhaps i should just continue with my spanish class instead, then i can practise with eelee.
speaking about language, i had a breakthrough in office yesterday~ LOL.
by my boss' order, i translated 36 pages of chinese documents into english! it was quite a struggle but i managed to do it after all. i didn't know that i can still read mandarin to that extent.
i wonder how much money, how much effort and how many years do i need if i want to be a linguist.
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Monday, October 08, 2007
i was listening to this song and it just struck me how beautiful it is.'On The Side of Me' -
Corrinne May
I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved
Yet you choose to be on the side of me, on the side of me
Yet you choose to be on the side of me, on the side of me
I'm not too proud of some things I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet are too big for me to hide
Yet you choose to be on the side of me, on the side of me
Blessed Charity, you're on the side of me, on the side of me
Everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared but you
I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth
'Cause you choose to be on the side of me, on the side of me
What a mystery, you're on the side of me, on the side of me
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Saturday, October 06, 2007
i've just received my PR approval yesterday. lol. it's just funny.i wanna thank many ppl who had been there for me thru-out all those trials.. all those rejections and in-out of the country... seriously.. all your encouragement and prayers... it would be hard for me to persevere on if not for you guys.
and of course my God deserves the biggest praise =)
now i can close the chapter.
i went to simlim today and came back with fantastic earphones!~ been wanting to change mine.
after that i went to meet mei while jus went to ss and gerald studied with roy.
all of us gathered again at meridien later in the evening. we were just talking and jasmine suddenly came to 'evaluate' the new framework with us, it was so funny.
i really enjoyed today, it's a good thing that i didn't stay at home =p
and yup, these are some of the pics that i took in bali:
the place was really gorgeous.
me and shirls reached there on wed and we immediately checked out the most famous beach. we had dinner at this nice (and very cheap if you calculate it in S$) restaurant on the beach. it was practically dining under the sky and facing the sea. there were 4 guys (hunks according to shirls) playing nice songs with guitar, percussion and stuff ><
the rest of the days were filled with white water rafting, visiting lakes and mountains, looking at art gallery, shopping..
as we stayed at hard rock hotel, we received free drinks from the cafe as well... by the way, i think their live band was great...
this is how the hotel looks like from the front.. can't help to think that it's very cool~
this is how the hotel looks like from the front.. can't help to think that it's very cool~
we used up our last day for parasailing! i had stomachache the moment i realized how high it was going to be... LOL.... but at the end i braced myself to go thru it..
surprisingly, it was not that scary once you're up in the sky... for the first time in my life, i felt that i could really fly... and that felt great.
after that we went for glass bottom boat to look at the fishes in the sea and ended the small tour with a trip to 'turtle island'. shirls was practically afraid to touch all the animals, but i took some pics with them (except for the snake and bat) =p
at least now i've seen what bali is all about... it's my country's pride after all... all indonesian should go there to take a look.
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Thursday, October 04, 2007
i just did a blog-surfing to check what i have missed out here.a wedding, two big bday celebrations and an annual retreat
seems like quite a happening week to me ><
oh well, at least i enjoyed my holiday too.
decided to choose 3 fave pics that describe the wedding~
yup that's my bro and my new sis during the dinner.
i love how they walked in~ even though i didn't see it personally.. i was too busy receiving hongbao at the entrance.
my parents were definitely glowing with radiant that nite. they had no reason not to.
and this is my fave.. taken with all my cousins (except the one in blue, if you realize, that's shirls). i hardly meet all my cousins at the same time..
it was really a great night. pity that i disliked what they did to my hair -_-
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Wednesday, October 03, 2007
just came back from one amusing seminar. after long discussion, ps jeff finally revealed the new 'guidelines' for courtship. it's probably a good news for most ppl, but i can't help to feel indifferent about the whole thing. the principle remains no matter how you change the methods, that's what matters.mc & sarah kindly gave me a ride back home. it was really great talking to them. we discussed some of the possibilities and challenges that ppl may have with the new BGR framework. well.. i am glad to see how happily married they are.. and of course we are happy that sarah will officially join our 8D family soon =)
sigh. i'm still feeling sad that i missed their wedding. the pics that merv took were really nice.
my bro's wedding was grand. 1000 guests perhaps. the place was beautiful and everybody turned up with gowns and suits. i saw many ppl whom i have not seen for ages, relatives that i was not very sure of and long lost friends. i'm glad that this time i had more time to interact with my sis in-law too.
i cried during the church wedding ><
it's just weird seeing my brother suddenly becoming a married man.
i'm having a few funny conversations rite now. one of them is dewen asking for 'shirls in gown' pic from me~
keep walking says (1:11 AM):
if i am being found out
and killed by shirls
pls make sure i'm buried on top of the mountain
i like cold weather
~solowen7~Let exams period be the time to exhibit your level of faith! says (1:11 AM):
sure..
any kind of food that u like?
keep walking says (1:11 AM):
i am a christian
i dun need food offering -_-
~solowen7~Let exams period be the time to exhibit your level of faith! says (1:11 AM):
erm..
then u think u buried can blow cold weather meh?
heaven is cooling enough..
u can tell God that a pastor killed u..
hahah.
on separate note, thanks for those who endure with me so much. i will try to be a better friend.
phew~ i'm feeling much better now.
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the same thought came to my mind again.have you ever lied down on your bed and suddenly the whole world disappeared?
you came to a realization that you are in fact alone in this world. you don't believe in love anymore and now you are beginning to doubt friendship as well. that this world is nothing but one giant conspiracy. people are put around you to make you happy for a period of time but when they are taken away, you are left with pain. some people are put around you just to make you feel annoyed from the beginning till the end. and the cycle continues.
i am living as i hang on to my belief that God is real. and i really do believe so.
He said that He is love and i believe it as well. there's no love like His love and that's the greatest thing about Him.
so if He is real and His love is real.. perhaps i should start to believe that everything in my life is real as well.
on separate note, wedding was great. holiday was great.
i'm recovering from my bad flu and fever but the migraine still pops by from time to time.
maybe i just need more zZz ><
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