i've just had a lunch with hanna. she's 9 mths pregnant and all radiant. i'm just happy to see her.
the due date for the baby is actually today and she's still walking around shopping (or she says exercise). we were joking about the possibilty of her water broke during our meal. that would be one experience LOL. but fortunately (or unfortunately) it didn't. so she continued her shopping after saying goodbye to me. the next time i see her should be in the ward room.. with her wrinkly baby daughter ><
life is an amazing thing. many times i told myself that i do not want to just live normally. working all my life, maybe got married, have children and die. seriously there got to be other alternative, more varieties.. more colours.. more choices...
eelee talked to me two days ago, asking me to 'consider' and pray about the possibility of me being one of the replacement team in the future. suddenly i was reminded again of this.. i have no idea if this is really the one.. is it just me or is it really from God. even if it is, is it really the right place as well? how about the timing? i wonder. the more i think about it, the more i feel that i may not be suitable. but on the other hand, i can vision myself for it. it can get pretty confusing. i have no idea what i want.
ps jo mentioned about giving on sunday. indeed, it hurts... especially if lots of money is involved. i am a very calculative person (more than anyone would imagine, well maybe besides my sis.. she would know how calculative i am). the thought of using my whole savings and living without any stability (financially) is pretty scary. but the truth is, there are many times the go-ers were blessed even more. the more you give, the more you are blessed. and i'm not just talking financially wise.
there's a problem. my life in spore has been very stable. the pay comes every month. i can even shop every month. not that i don't want to. it's good to have a stable income, you worry less. but i want to trust God more on something.
maybe i should have a personal retreat and do a 5-years planning. when there's no goal there's no plan, when there's no plan there's no action. *livi* 1:34 PM
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livi grace melinda
14/02/82
love everything but durian