jim brickman's music is making me very mel. i feel so tired. partly perhaps cos i woke up too early this morning, actually i'm amazed that i really managed to reach nexus at 7 something. i enjoy serving, beginning to think that i'm a martha.
i thought about this just now. serving is supposed to be fun rite? but sometimes it has become a burden when ppl are not satisfied with what you do, but why must we care about others at the first place? we are serving God, not men. as long as you know that you have given your best to God, sometimes the result is not the most important thing. ppl like to criticize, hey i'm not an exception. cos it is easy to say things like oh the singers sang off tune, the drummer missed the beat, couldn't hear the guitarist, the worship leader was not excited enough, the video was poorly done, the sound was too loud, the lyrics were wrong, the drama had a bad ending, the preacher's not funny... you name it you get it.
i heard someone once said "why don't you do it then?" ok that doesn't sound really nice, but seriously it is true in certain way. we are just full of complaints, even when we watch soccer and the guy missed the penalty kick, naturally we'd condemn the guy as one of the most stupid guy on earth. come on, penalty kick may not be as easy as it seems, especially with all the millions pairs of eyes looking at you.
don't get me wrong, we can always give comments with objective of improving the person, we all should be happy as the receiver. if no one tells you, there's no way to evaluate and improve. and when they do, we gotta be teachable.. though sometimes you just feel like having bad spirit (easier to do that) but if your comments have no purpose whatsoever, i think it's better to keep it.
how about when you got blamed for something that you didn't do? well in an indirect way maybe. i think a leader got this a lot, especially in a ministry. gotta shield the whole team and take the overall responsibility. my.. it's a tough job isn't it?
i think we have to cultivate the habit of encouraging rather than finding mistakes. it's tough enough to be in a ministry or as a leader in a pastoral or even both. let our work be a joy, not a burden. servants, just do your best, guard your heart from pride and know that God is looking. your work is never in vain. i am not comforting myself, self pity or blaming anyone here, it's just a thought. i have many things to reflect myself as well.
listening >> crossroads - jim brickman
i am disappointed with how things turn out with certain friendship that i have, some which are partially broken by myself. maybe that's why ppl said friends are not forever. perhaps it is true. *livi* 8:30 PM
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14/02/82
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