what a week. there are a few things that i really wanna thank God for. i'm not sure how many ppl really know about my long battle with the government and i do not wish to explain it in details here, but, after 3 1/2 years.. that battle HAS finally ended. LOL. sometimes things are just put by God in a very funny way, when i think back of how my own life journey is, i am just so amazed.
i was clearing up my mailbox a few days ago and i saw an email from ps jeff dated 21 Aug 2003. felt very encouraged once again when i read it. it says:
Hi Livi,
I am proud of the way you had handled the present job search. You have shown courage and faith and a strong desire of God's best for the church. Thanks for modeling Christ-likeness to many of us. We were all in awe by what God has been doing through you. Fundamentally, the building blocks of the church is not money, bricks & mortars but yielded lives to Jesus. Yielded lives are the only and best building materials for God's house!
Thanks for being a building block.
i brought that thought along with me as i made my trip back to indonesia during the weekend. it's not for me to feel proud of myself or something, but i'm just glad that my life is not for my own. what i've gone through can be an example or a living testimony of God's greatness, there's nothing else i can ask for. i shall boast of Him because it is true, there's just no way i could persevere and stay strong with my own strength. anyone may say that God is not real but no one can deny that He is real in MY life. that is the truth.
the trip turned out to be a fruitful one. i stayed at my uncle's house and was quite free to do my own thing. spent a lot of time reading (totally enjoyed it) and talking to my aunt as well. it was the first time we really talked for hours, she shared to me about all her worries on her children. there are just many bad things going on in the family and it came upon me that she IS a strong mother. it's never been easy to be a mother. i did a lot of thinking as well, trying to get 'assurance' from God about my own perseverance.. started to wonder again if i was on the right track. gosh, i really do not like the feeling of anxiety and doubt. but at the end, after much prayer and calculation, i knew that i had to continue on with my faith. came back to spore and i received the good news on monday... simply lost for words ><
thanks to all who keep me in prayer and rejoice together with me.. really really... it's comforting to know that i am never alone. it's just a blessing in my life that i have people who can share my joy and my sorrow.
ended the blessed day with a good jap dinner ahaha.. kept my promise to give dave a bday treat though it's already very belated. nevertheless, it's a good time spent =) yesterday was another great day, i decided to make a trip down to the eastern side of the town for a nice curry fish head lunch (thanks for the treat eugene). after that we indulged in irresistable dazs' rum n raisin ice cream hahaa so fattening.. and of course thanks roy for your kind hospitality, your house is a good place to slack =p went for the media gathering at bbhq in the evening. steven gave us another teaching on parable of talents. been hearing this a lot recently, God is trying to make a clear point.. whatever you have, use it. do not think that you can't do anything for the kingdom.
lastly, just wanna praise God for His protection over my family. i've just found out that my parents got into a car accident back in indo, the car was badly damaged but they were not hurt at all, not even a scratch. when my dad told me over the phone, i just knew that it was God. i really pray that thru this incident they can be closer to Him. what a blessing.
i'm going to have a few days off this week, decided to rest well at home and maybe do a few things that i haven't been able to find time to do, like shopping for furniture haha. this week will be the best time to ask me out.
listening >> heaven in my heart - hillsong
if i could see beyond the sky, reach above the stars.. but for now i close my eyes and pray, lift my hands and sing. Jesus You're my Saviour. You are heaven in my heart. *livi* 2:05 PM
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livi grace melinda
14/02/82
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