Friday, September 29, 2006
i saw (and listened to) something really nice at JX's blog. sheila majid's legenda is one of the best song of all times.
loved it more than 10 yrs ago and i'm still loving it this second.
thanks to hady for bringing it back to my memory. he's really the man.
Sejuta bintang di angkasa
Sinarnya mempesona
Sebutir bintang di taman seni
Cahayanya berseri
Biar bertahun masa beredar
Satu wajah satu zaman takkan pudar
Tetap jelas di ruang mata
Setiap gerak gaya
Bergetaran merdu sinar
Di persada budaya
Hingga kini menjadi sebutan
Tetap terpahat namamu di ingatan
Kaulah satu satunya
Di antara berjuta
Insan teristimewa
Patah tak tumbuh lagi
Hilang belum berganti
Kerana kau tersendiri
Kau kebanggaan kita
Kau budayawan bangsa
Engkau legenda
you are the one and only. among the millions. the most special being.
............................... it's a beautiful song. period.
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Monday, September 25, 2006
who will win the spore idol?according to some ppl, "jonathan, because last year's winner is a malay so this year should be a chinese"
so based on that, shirls thinks that next year's winner will be an indian. HAHA.
talking about being balance.
oh well, i do think hady is better but seriously it doesn't matter who wins.
next week we're going to have ESS on work issues. when i saw the titles on the bulletin, i just couldn't help but to giggle, cos they're so real.
Part 1 : I love my work, it's the people I hate
Part 2 : Why am I working like a dog?
it will be good to bring colleagues down for this, too bad mine are all christians. maybe i can bring ex-colleagues.
think again, there are few reasons why you feel dissatisfied with your job:
1. the boss is terrible (treat you worse than a dirt)
2. the colleagues are nightmare
3. the pay is too low
4. the workload is beyond imagination (OT everyday)
5. bad timing (more on shift work)
6. no proper training and guidance
7. nothin to do, sit down and stare at the wall everyday
8. no job satisfaction, no purpose, no long term advancement
9. must go against your belief and principles, not ethical
10. the office is too far and not really accessible
if you have at least 5 of the above, we shall all pray for you.
anyway no matter what, it's still better than being unemployed right?
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Saturday, September 23, 2006
after anniversary.
hey i like this pic...
after months of waiting, steven finally gave me a project ><
together with a few others, we've formed a team to produce anniversary dvd. we met up on friday and it's really very exciting thinking how it's going to be.
as i haven't been doing any editing for quite some time, i suppose i'll need a lot of learning and brain squeezing.. God's wisdom is much needed as well.
haha at the end of the day, though i politely rejected the offer to be involved during the anniversary, i am still involved now for the post anniversary.. just can't run from it. but i'll take it as a privilege, we are all here to serve after all =)
a reminder for the gals,
do not question a guy's ability in doing certain things, especially if it's something that the guy takes pride on.
you have no idea how deep you're digging your grave by doing it.
for the guys,
you must learn how to read in between the lines when you're talking to a gal.
there's a hidden meaning behind every word.
extra amount of sensitivity is needed.
sadly, for the guys to understand what gals really want is like expecting a pig to fly.
so gals, don't put your expectations too high, we gotta be understanding too. understanding why they behave how they behave will make our lives less miserable. LOL.
hmm... i am craving for chili crab.
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
i've just finished reading the anniversary booklet (a bit slow rite)think that it's good, spotted a few funny pics like eelee and the crab, gosh i laughed very loud on the bus =p
anyway it brought back memories.
i think my first encounter with hope would be when shirls brought me to this mega cg meeting, not sure when it was, almost 10 yrs ago? i remember pris being there.
next encounter would be the ss at tg pagar area, should be kreta ayer... actually can't really recall what happened back then.
i remember the 3rd encounter clearly though. shirls brought me and my cousin to the ss at marriott. when we reached there, she just disappeared. really disappeared, until pnw time. was kinda surprised seeing her on stage leading lolx.
the best part is when pris (yes i remember her) approached me and started a conversation, led her to know that i'm indonesian..
pris :"you are indonesian?? wow.. do you know that the gal who's leading on stage is indonesian too?"
me :"errr... you mean shirley?"
pris :"you know her????" (her eyes were sparkling)
me :"errr... ya.. she's my sister"
pris : *opened her mouth really big, one step back, eyes very wide*
ahahaa.. she was soo amusing. i still remember that, don't think she does though.
anyway the story goes on and on, too many to tell.
just recalled back on a few ppl who has mentored me so far.
josh (aka shirley toh)
for giving me a call every week just to make sure i come to cg, went down to my house to 'feed' me, picked me up at amk to show me the ministry house.
it was short but impactful.
jaslin, dear jaslin peh.
i think she's the one who grew me the most. from an unwilling member to a shepherd to a CL to a UL, from an usher to a team leader to a floor manager to team hope leader. all those overnight times at her house, corrected by her, inspired by her. she's an amazing one.
i really miss her and God knows how much i want to connect the broken link back again.
jasmine poon.
honestly, i was so scared of her at the beginning ><
but she's a very wise leader.. and generous too. blessed to be under her, no doubt about it.
last but not least susi.. for being there as a friend and sometimes.. a mother.
God works through different ppl, life is an amazing thing~
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Sunday, September 17, 2006
it's almost like a reunion.it's a wonderful anniversary, met a lot of ppl that i don't really see often anymore. it's really heartwarming when we saw one another. john was there, i'm so glad that he's excited for God.
thank God for everyone who contributed to the anniversary, i know it's a hard work =)
without realizing it, hope has been a home like no other to me.
God is really faithful, you can't deny this.
once again, happy bday hope singapore~
since everyone dressed up, we decided to go for a nice dinner (it's sat nite and no ss on sun lolx) so me, susi, mei, wl, bao and tim went to raffles' sushi tei. i haven't been there before so i was kinda surprised to see the place decorated very beautifully, seriously i think it's a very very nice place to dine.
we had a great time together, it's just rare of us to have such a good meal together and we all looked so nice hahaha... susi left earlier but the rest of us proceeded to harry's, enjoying the music and just talking. the guys ordered one big bottle of red wine lolx. but of course i drank rum, as usual, i don't really drink other stuff.
i'm glad that we had the opportunity to deepen our relationship, things that we talked about is just hilarious. tim was being very generous in giving all of us the treat for the drinks.. gotta thank es also for dropping by and sent us home, since it was so late and cab fare is just ex nowadays.
woke up very late today, went to sengkang for meeting. as usual, we ate a lot.
been eating like mad recently, last week i had 2 dimsum meals, one was a treat from boss, the other one was mei's bday celebration. anyway, sometimes i think we are so blessed, we live to eat rather than eat to live.
back to the meeting, it was relaxing and enjoyable, i'm starting to get used to the ppl in the team. we focused back on xmas, the ppl that we're going to invite for ecg, ess and praying for converts. i really wanna see fresh blood, sometimes we're just getting too comfortable with one another.
can't wait for xmas n new year! but on the other hand, i don't want time to pass so fast as well. this is what we called contradiction.
listening >> radical dreamers (all time fave)
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Saturday, September 16, 2006
what is anniversary to you?i am sad that some ppl choose to attend on other things and not joining the big celebration together later. we have different priorities, what can i say?
yesterday was exhausting day, interesting exhausting day.
i call it the adventure of livi melinda. lolx.
i went to ICA very early in the morning finding myself had to leave the country on the same day. dropped by in office to talk with my boss and she offered me to go to bintan/batam and stayed in her chalet. wahaha.. so nice of her. my colleagues were very encouraging and caring as well (what did i do to deserve such good company?)
anyway i decided not to go back indo due to the anniversary today, so i called shirls up and asked her to accompany me to JB. she was shopping with pris. i went to look for them and walked for hours searching for the right suit, top and shoes for her.. she spent a bomb lolx.
met shuz and mei at far east.
by the time we finished shopping, shirls had to go to expo for rehearsal (BAKA) so at the end i went to JB alone. oh well.. so i crossed the border.
thank God for 2 things:
- mp3 player .. it makes a lot of diff when you can listen to music through out
- auto roaming hp .. it just makes me feel safe
then the funny things happened.
at msian checkpoint, the officer stopped me, saying that i didn't have ticket, money and had to go back to indo instead. surprisingly i found myself very calm and confident lolx. after a while, he kinda whispered to me "if you give money, we will close eyes and let you pass"
i stood there for few seconds, wondering if i heard him right.
then he went on to say that i could meet the big officer if i wanted to, but the big officer might want more money from me, like S$50.. but he just wanted S$20. so it was my choice.
i found it hilarious, i laughed. in my mind i knew that i was not going to fall on this. so i took the risk, i requested to meet the big officer.
the big guy talked to me, asked me some questions.. i took it as a chatting session. at the end of the whole talk, he said "i pity you, ok you can enter" then he let me pass without requesting any money. lolx.
so i walked around at city square, it was actually quite fun.. like a getaway trip.
now it's time to go back to spore. at spore checkpoint, similar thing happened. the officer stopped me (not asking for money) but asked me to meet the big officer. while waiting, i sat beside him.. it was so funny man.. felt like in a movie. when i entered the room, there was like 10 ppl inside (dominated by guys) i guess with IMF going, the custom has become very strict and not letting a lot of ppl to enter.
so.. i talked to the officer, another chatting session. i was not afraid, i started to think where to go for dinner with susi. at the end, he said this to me "ok i pity you, you can enter" wahahaha.. it's the same sentence as msian officer. simply hilarious.
surprisingly he gave me maximum days to stay (didn't expect that), it's really kind of him but before i left he made me promise not to go to ICA cos he would get into problem for letting me in.
so i left and made my way down to meet susi for a nice dinner. reached home to feel really dead and slept early.
this whole saga really made me realize one more time that God is real and He is good. few years back i would feel scared and worried, imagine being alone in foreign land and grilled by the officers.
but today i dare to say that i am not. it was just another journey with God. He is taking care of me, this i never doubt.
i gotta stop here n prepare myself for anniversary =)
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Wednesday, September 13, 2006
this must be my first complete cg pic (taken not so long ago)just in case i'll turn senile in the future - clockwise from top left- weiling, nic, samuel, tim, JH, bao, shufen, me, mei, susi and last but not least siewling.
i was actually thinking of putting some pics together, like my own time tunnel. but then.. decided that it's too much of a hard work. yet it is still great looking at my photo collection or just reading my diary and past blog entries again.
the big anniversary is coming.
what has gone wrong?
few things have been swimming in my mind these few days. sometimes i'd stop and wonder why. i feel that i am evil. though my actions are not, though my heart is trying to be pure, but the mind is evil. i guess when the mind is not pure, the heart is not as well.
pride.
or perhaps.. envy.
"let him who boasts boast in the Lord"
Lord, pls remind me constantly. i'll do what i have to do.
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
been wanting to blog but just couldn't find the time to. let me sort out by days.
FRI. spent most of my day in MOM and ICA. i don't know what to say, the feeling is numb.
but one thing i know is God put people into my life to represent His love and His assurance, i'm so thankful to many ppl.
i saw the youth ushers having retreat when i went down to nexus for dinner appointment, it was quite amazing. as what sengkim said, i didn't recognize many of them. ushers always change, but whoever they are, they make a big diff to the church. sometimes it's the smile of an usher that makes you feel so at home in church =)
do them a favour, smile at them when you see them ok, appreciate them more.
SAT. spent half of the day sleeping.
i went down to lakeside for team munch in the afternoon. everybody had to bring something down, so i bought one giant black pepper chicken, it's a wrong move lolx.
we started with pnw, followed by xmas planning and ended with a 'buffet' - 2 large pots of fried rice, fried noodle, 2 big plates of chicken, 2 large bowls of curry chicken, salad, large bread, 2 boxes of pizza, fishball, green bean soup, fruits, banana cake, brownies, tiramisu cake and God knows what else. i had to open up my secret compartment that night.
started to think about xmas and can't help but to feel excited, we're going to have a party once again, it's not for ourselves only but for those out there. xmas party.. so fun.
after the dinner we actually played some new board games (preparation for the upcoming board games day). me, nic, susi n weiling ended up playing this 'train' game, it was quite boring at first but the counting points part was fun, nic won the game (surprising right)
SUN. woke up early for ss, felt good. totally enjoyed the pnw, been a while since i thought the music's fantastic. everything fell to the right place, it's just so ministering.
too bad at the end i couldn't meet up with vannessa. some of us spent the rest of the afternoon searching for a bag, it's amazing how i could walk around for more than 4 hours.
reached home to find a whole set of 'kim sam soon' lying on the floor.. ahahaaa... something new to watch, not bad. i think the show really shows us that ppl may not always pick the more good looking one or the more gentle or the one with nicer smile.
speaking of which, there's this guy with a knock-out smile and speaks in a very nice accent of english inside the drama, wa man.. and he's a kind doctor and he can play guitar well. this is illusion, there's no such thing in real life. hahaaa...
MON. hrmm.. worked.. then had a nice spicy dinner with weiling before the class.
i love the class, today we talked about shepherding.. it's simply applicable. i evaluated myself in every single point, being a mentor, teaching the WOG is important.
shepherds, do you know that we are being held accountable for our sheep' lives? do we meet their needs? do we point them to God?
having integrity and credibility.. my life is not my own.
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
blogging on shirls' new vaio, my i love it. i should really kidnap it but it's a bit hard considering that we sleep in the same room and no place to hide the laptop. now we won't fight for the pc anymore, in fact i don't mind using her laptop more than using the pc. but still, all my precious songs and anime are in my precious pc, so both machines are ok.
i have a feeling that i was blabbering.
anyway, one week has passed since the first day of work, been very busy but i'm really grateful that boss is patient with me and didn't scold when i made a stupid mistake like making the shredding machine spoilt. sigh, don't understand why i must put so many papers at one go, dumb me.
there's one thing that i really want now. RAM.
listening >> higher - hillsong
this is nice, what a discovery
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
not really proud of it, but i am having certain hatred towards someone recently. hatred. what a word.
definition: 'a feeling of dislike so strong that it demands action'
God, i don't want to hate.
loving one another is harder than loving God.
but do you know that when you hate, you suffer the most? the other party doesn't even know that you have this hatred. that's foolish rite? lolx. (i'm talkin to myself)
livi the overcomer, it's time to work.
after watching devil wears prada, i'm somehow more conscious about fashion. the movie showed me lots of very very very nice clothes (if you pay attention to what she's wearing there) anyway, it's fun watching what the ppl wear to work, or even during lunch hour as i passed by all those dept stores.. nice clothes, bags, shoes, accessories everywhere.. never knew i can be this girly.
but still, if i have money, i'd rather invest on electronic gadgets. i have a long list in mind for that =p
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have you ever listened to a song that's sooo nice until a point that you felt like pulling your hair?i've been immersing myself into hillsong acoustic's came to my rescue. just can't comprehend how God created a man with such wonderful voice.. and the guitar.. and the melody.. haiz, the song is brilliant. truly.
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Saturday, September 02, 2006
my plan to jog today failed terribly once my head touched the bed again.. so sleepy man.. i just woke up from a nice nap ><life has been quite fruitful these few days, well since i started my work. God is indeed good, i am reminded of this over and over again. sometimes i think back of my previous jobs and how i ended up in my situation right now, it's really a valuable journey and experience. there's always somethin that i can learn, even from all the traumatising treatment that i received in my previous companies. God orchestrated everything nicely and i know that it's not going to be smooth sailing for me forever though i'm drowned in bliss right now, there will be times when test and trials come again, but i will be ready, anytime.
let's start with kris, she's the other new gal who started with me, sharing my workload and room. i'm glad that God put her in this together with me, such a lovely gal. my boss, soh may is such a wise woman and i've actually learnt a great deal of life values just from the past conversations that i had with her. she encouraged us to have enough rest (thus no OT work is allowed), to stand up again after making mistakes, to work together as a team, to rely on God in tight situations and even for us to have quiet time and pray together before work. sometimes i wonder if i am actually working in church office.
my other colleagues are a bunch of great ppl as well, i believe that i'll have time to explore more in the future but so far they have been very friendly and patient.
workload is manageable, not too much for now and yet not boring, i feel very fulfilled when i finished a task. does it sound like a perfect job? lolx.
anyway i don't want to be complacent, who knows what God is planning for me next. no one knows.
last nite weiling asked me out to see some arts thingy at padang, i still don't understand what it was until now haha. anyway it was very amazing as we ended up talking and walking and talking and sitting down for a meal and coffee and talking and walking and talking blablabla for more than 6 hours! i think we've never shared our lives for that long but it's good to know one another better =)
i'm glad that i had that talking session, she's such a dear. we ended in a prayer (standing in front of ps) and hailed a cab at 2 am in the morning. hahaa.. amazing.
i met up with roy and jus for nice lunch today! ^^
seriously it's such a blessing to have these 2 brothers in my life, my tweety reminded me of them a lot haha.. well actually more than that of course.
jus chose new york new york so it's the second time i celebrated his bday in a 'new york' related restaurant considering we went to nydc last year. surprisingly they dressed smarter than usual (due to the filming in nexus, not because of the meal date) =p
anyway i really did enjoy the time, ate and talked a lot, walked them up to nexus after that.
i met claudia there and she said i look different and nicer with my hair much longer now HAHAHA.. oh my.. she made my day.. lolx.. actually i don't think it's the hair, it's the joy of the Lord that glows in my face. oh well..
happy bday once again roy n jus (i know you guys are reading this), love you guys~
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