Wednesday, August 30, 2006
time passes like nobody's business, last nite was the vop and from what i saw, it's indeed a successful one, very interesting event =)due to miscalculation (unwillingness to chase after the bus), me and weiling reached farrer quite late. the place brought back memories, it's so near to my old place (blk 7 farrer rd there), that's the place where my first shepherd josherine always came to 'feed' me, we had cg there before also.. jaslin, xiaowen, fuqiang, jiebing.. i used to be the youngest in the group. haha. but seriously, without them there won't be me today.
justin mentioned about the new ff7 game, haiz i feel so sad of not being able to see it personally and play it. look at vincent, isn't he cool? he's always been my fave character besides cloud.
last day of freedom.. working from tmw onwards! phew~
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i hate to be born as a woman, we suffer.but Lord, You are good and this i will not deny.
listening >> oceans will part - hillsong
it's funny that i don't like the album but this particular song captured me.
If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
susi and shufen are taking a nap, weiling and siewling are having shepherding outside in the living room, and here i am half sleeping and blogging lolx. we are all just waiting for 5 pm to come, going to attend filipino ss today.after much talking about it, finally today is the comm care day!
i got out of the house even before the sun-rise, the air was so fresh and the street was empty. i was walking alone as i listened to kees kraayenoord's hold on to you forever. the feeling of that moment was.. priceless.
we should really appreciate morning more, starting the day correctly with God.
to my surprise, many families came for the family ties, heard that about 200 childrens signed up for the competitions that we had. our cg was in charge of a south american game, goloza. it's actually similar to hopscotch. lots of kids loved it, very good business! haha.. within one hour, all of us turned into professional salesman/woman.
nicole was more excited with the crawling baby competition though.. lolx.
anyway it was really quite fun, we're happy to see that the residents were enjoying themselves, from the kids to parents to the grandparents, from babies to grannies. they played and they had fun.
i know that we hit our objectives to influence the community and that makes all the things that we do worthwhile. yup yup.. carnival is fun.
have i become older again?
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
it's been quite some time since the last time i came out for one whole day. feelin very sleepy now.woke up early for a trip to office to get a letter, i can really see that my future colleagues are very nice ppl =)
then i made a trip down to MOM, surprisingly it's quite empty. didn't spend much time waiting and the officer was very friendly as well, i got the extension without a sweat. praise God.
since i had time so i decided to walk around and find some inspiration, before long i received an unknown call. the guy on the other line spoke indonesian! lolx, it turned out to be one of my friend that i happen to know for 12 years.. gosh i am really that old already.
anyway let's just call him jo, he studied in switzerland and england for years and now he's working in dubai. back here for holiday and this old friend of mine remembers me ^^
so i went to meet him at ps and it's so funny man. the moment he saw me, he just opened his arms and gave me a big hug, i was like a-ha-ha-ha... (-_-) i hope no 'hope' ppl was around hahahhaa. but it was nothin la, guess he does it all the time. anyway it was so fun catching up with him! we had lots of things to talk about. i really think that his life is quite exciting, he's planning to move on to either shanghai or japan in another few years. i don't think i will see him again in near future after today. hope that he will be well and i'm so glad when he told me how the church has brought him lots of peace in his heart. he gave me another hug before he left, i still couldn't get used to it =p
met shuz for a rare date after that, watched slevin together and we both agreed that it's interesting, in fact we like it (not just because of josh and bruce ok). the theatre was sooo empty, well cos it's fri afternoon and it's R21 yeah. but i did enjoy the meal afterwards cos it's sharing time lolx.
district meet was in the evening, it ended in a blink of an eye, i wonder why.
but it did leave me with a thought, i'd love to go for missions next year.. or 2008 latest. prayin that it will really come to pass =)
hungry..
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
the following post can only be understood by those who watch idol.i've just finished watchin spore idol and i can't help but to share what i have in mind-
spore idol is very mean. mean. meanie beanie. EVIL.
ok we all know that joakim can't sing and he should be out, BUT it's not his fault that he's still in the competition. so why is everybody blaming him and putting him down? the worst part is they're doing it LIVE on tv. what on earth?
i'm not joakim's fans and i won't vote for him, but all sound-minded ppl should be able to see that he's a positive, quite good natured nice person and he just doesn't deserve all those sarcastic comments. please.. this is a competition, as a host you should be fair, how can that daniel ong said it so obviously about voting wrong person blablabla... it's obviously embarrassing joakim.
if you wanna blame anyone, then blame the fans. but in no condition that one should embarrass a contestant on national tv!
that girl who got kicked out today (nurul) should feel ashamed for being such a sore loser as well by giving that bitter comment.
shirls: "if i were nurul and had 10-sec airtime, i'd rather stand up in his defense! he's just doing his best every week - if they think someone else should proceed instead of him, well, keep quiet and let ur $0.60 do the talking!"
i'm not siding anyone here, but my point is ppl shouldn't be that mean, come on.. give the guy a break. it's really not his fault that he can't sing but he's loved. stop pin-pointing at him.. not on national tv where millions of ppl are watching.
those ppl should feel ashamed seriously... shame on them.
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it's not my intention to make my blog as lyrics website, but this simple song struck me again today as i spent some time praying.When you pray every prayer that you know how to pray
Just remember the Lord will hear and the answer is on its way
Do u feel that the Lord has forgotten your need
Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see
Our God is able
He is mighty
He is faithful
He never sleeps he never slumbers
He never tires of hearing our prayer
When we are weak He becomes stronger
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him
sometimes i pray and i wonder if the Lord is listening, if i'm sincere enough, if i'm just talking to myself. after a prayer, i wonder if it will come true, doubt and fear can somehow linger.
learning to accept His timing and His ways.
i should be at rest.
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Let me say all I need to sayLife is so much more than what you think it is
Would you let me say all I want to say to you
Maybe you don't wanna hear it
Hear my point of view
Would you take the time to hear what's on my mind
Something that's so good to know
I wish you'd know it too
O won't you please
Would you let me say all I want to say to you
Nothing I would rather do than share it all with you
You see I was blind but now I see everything
The One who opened up my eyes can open your eyes too
O won't you please
Let me say all I need to say
Life is so much more than what you think it is
Let me say all I need to say
Life is very short so you better be thinking it through
O won't you please
Let me say to you
Let me say...
i have that song in my pc for years, but yet i've just realized that it's a nice one.
the lyric tells it all don't you think so?
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For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? Or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?shirls asked me out for lunch and i told her that i am not eating. the first question she asked was "are you spiritual or broke?"
lolx.
but seriously, fasting can draw me closer to God indeed.
abstinence.
there shouldn't be anything in this world that we can't live without. i am still trying to comprehend that fully.
suddenly i remember the class last nite.
submission and accountability.
God knows everything, don't think that we can justify our actions and get away with it. even when no one knows, do you know that God is watching?
how about submission in your heart? do you feel bitter when you say yes to certain things that you know fully that you don't agree with it in your heart? are you cursing deep down?
that's a simple basic teaching rite? we all learnt that before.. but personally, i do find it hard to do. oh well, what is life without struggles?
i gotta bring my heart to heavenly laundry everyday.. bleach it.
listening >> he never sleeps - don moen (in my mind)
no i don't have the album, i may want to buy it though-
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Monday, August 21, 2006
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!today is 21st aug. haizzz...
i think i'm stupid enough to post this. just want to mark this day.
i have more than one reason for that, just in case you think you know what i'm thinking and why i'm more or less scolding myself, it's more than that.. more than that..
i just hate this personality of mine.
alright.. it's time to charge again!!
HAHAHA.. oh my.. i'm feelin much better now.
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Friday, August 18, 2006
i was doing my slides when pris asked me for the link to donghaeng. since i had the time, i went to the website and browsed through as well. found this very touching new clip that really dropped something to my heart.
http://www.donghaeng.net/english/hope/hope.swf
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
waiting is the scariest part of my life, more than rejection. now it is the time to wait.
it's so common to have doubts and questions.. "what if?"
i guess once in a while all i need is a reminder and assurance, from God directly or from others. mei did a good job on that today haha, i gotta believe. even if it's not God's will, i should know how to accept it.
just in case you're wondering what i was blabbering about and you don't have powerful discernment like yf =p, i was just talking bout my work pass application, since i just got a job (YAY!)
the job is really divine, God just amazes me. good company, good boss, good location, good pay, good job. what can i say? Lord is good.
i just realized that today is my national day! (yes i'm an indonesian)
how patriotic i am.. lolx.
well i do hope that the government really mean it when they said wanna fix the poverty and corruption in the country. it's going to take an extremely long time.. very very long i'm afraid.
listening >> you i'm living for - victory christian centre
i miss this song a lot.....
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
i'm aching all over, didn't know that badminton cause such pain. nevertheless the perspiration made it worthwhile and i didn't really make a fool of myself after all.glad to spend that rare fun time with stan and jem, almost never in fact =)
yesterday was my second time being interviewed by a devoted christian and we ended up talking about our belief in God for almost an hour, almost forgot that it's a job interview. she threw me some questions like "why are you a christian?".. "have you ever encountered unanswered prayer in your life, what do you feel about it?"
she talked about significance of every job no matter how small it is, parables, freedom to think, etc etc. i was actually quite amazed with this person, a very good communicator.
speaking of which, i need to make a choice now.. something that i don't really like to do especially when both options are equally good with own pros and cons. gotta spend some time thinking n praying about it...
when it's mine, it's mine.. it will be mine.
listening >> dance in the river - chris tomlin
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
it was definitely a funny day yesterday. as we're celebrating yupei's bday by the pool, weiling asked me to go to her house earlier so that she could doll me up. told her many times that everybody would be wearing t-shirt n shorts, there's no point to look so nice lolx. but anyway i went there at the end and oh my she had a lot of cosmetic thingy.. it took her almost one hour just to play with my face, bottle after bottle, layer after layer.. she really enjoyed it. anyway it turned out well =p
that's me, the bday gal puay (happy bday again) and my new beautician weiling~
all of us went to sengkang area to give out flyers after ss today, it's for the upcoming comm care project (family ties). surprisingly, it was an easy job and we finished it in no time. i think it should be very fun on the day itself, hopefully many will come. this is what we call making a diff in society. the last time i had this experience would be '01 bishan park carnival, that was quite fun.
after the whole thing, i dropped by mei's house to pick my guitar up, well we ended up slacking and playing guitar together. what do i want to achieve in polishing my guitar skill? i thought about it before, all i know for now is i want to improve. thanks mei for the essential worship guitar vcd, think it will help me a lot =)
listening >> we all bow down - lenny leblanc
when you're down or you just need to find something to laugh at- (be prepared for stomach-ache)
http://www.breakdancingelite.com/worlds-funniest-japan-pranks2.htm
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
i'm in love with cheese! shirls just came back from her trip to europe (sigh i'm so jealous) and she let me taste this very nice swiss cheese. imagine how fat i can be if i live there, the cheese is so addictive.
she just shared a few things about the hope europe convention, in fact she's still talking about it now as i am typing. it really sounds amazing. can't believe how fast our church has grown there, especially in germany.
i think i should find a job soon, start saving up and perhaps i can go there for the convention in 2008.. not just for a holiday but an eye opener as well.
i will go there! *nod nod*
after hearing so many good comments from diff ppl, i decided to watch 'click' this afternoon. it was quite hard to find someone to watch together but at the end i got a funny combination =p
the movie is as good as i heard, i actually cried (so paiseh).. but yah i like it.
guo was saying that it's almost one year since the day that we split as in everyone started to walk on diff path.. gosh is it really one year already? how scary it is. time flies.
anyway i'm glad to spend that little time with him today. the whole church will celebrate your bday this year brother =)
listening >> shirls,"....even the museum security guard is super handsome, he looks like some armani model. i wanted to take a pic with him but his boss was nearby .... in italy it's really 9 out of 10 guys are good looking! unlike in spore, if you can find 1 good looking out of 10 guys in the street, it is your lucky day .... even jasmine and gwen agreed... the bus driver, ticket seller, gondola rower are all head-turners.... i think they are the most good looking race on earth ........"
this will definitely take quite long and i'm still listening to her stories now, so i shall end my entry of the day here =p
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Monday, August 07, 2006
i'm depressed, really am. anything that is too much is never good and i simply have too much time to kill right now. there's a limit to how many resumes i can send, how many books i can read, how many verses i can meditate on, how many songs i can listen and practise on, how many episodes of anime i can watch, how many dota games i can play, how many things i can clean up, how many clothes i can wash, how many entries i can post on my blog.. sigh.Lord, i need something to do, something that will occupy my whole day... a job.
feels like venting my frustration by screaming but i know my neighbours won't like it. worst part of all, i do not like to sleep and it makes the day seemingly longer.
ok i know that i am complaining here... if i had the money, i'd have packed my bag and flew to africa. why africa? i don't know.. think life can be quite interesting there.
i've just finished a weird anime titled 'the melancholy of haruhi suzumiya', the main character is bored to death and wishes for an alien, esper or perhaps a time traveller to come to her life, just to make her life more interesting. quite a fantasy huh, sometimes i do hope for such things to happen as well, you know, maybe i can be part of luffy crew and searching for that one piece.. travelling from one island to another, meeting different ppl and creatures along the way.
stupid livi, it won't happen, never will. this is a real world. i'm just being weird here at this moment at this second. i wonder how many ppl have the same thought before..
i refuse to be mediocre.
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
it seems that i can change my mind everyday. been listening to david crowder band today and i like it. up to this second after much pondering, i don't think i have a fave album and there's no such thing called best album, simply because there are just too many good ones out there.mei just went home hehe spent the whole afternoon together, anyway we agreed that the best thing to do on sat is to stay at home and relax. you can wake up very late and do your household chores slowly.. pure entertainment at home, anything that you like to do from sleeping to watching anime or playing guitar. she brought my guitar home to change all the rusty strings! T_T
really thank God for her, i just can't do it myself..
the ability to be forgetful
if you ask someone who lives with biblical integrity to tell you one of the greatest benefits that he or she enjoys, the likely answer will be a clear conscience.
"the man of integrity walks securely, but he who takes crooked paths will be found out"
to be forgetful. i don't have to struggle to remember when i've told the truth and when i've lied. i don't have to expend a lot of energy trying to keep my stories straight. that's liberating.
- lee strobel -
listening >> no one like You (live) - david crowder band
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i thank You Lord for Don Moen.such a mesmerizing voice and the band was really good!
though i did not really enjoy CCC (btw i think it's CCC Youth) cos i didn't know any of their songs, i think this year's FOP is good.. well.. cos Don Moen is there.
they still have sat and sun night, indoor stadium... should go and take a look. you'll love him.
i managed to catch up with jy and dw this afternoon, went for a lunch together followed with a game of dota believe it or not. the game's very fun, at least to me =p
suddenly i have nothing to say.. gonna spend some time reflecting. hmm bathe first.
listening >> rescue - don moen
why didn't he sing it just now? sigh.
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Almighty God.. Lord of all creation.. Ancient of days.. The Holy OneSo many names You've given us to call You
But one remains
Your favorite name
Your favorite name is Father
You love to hear Your children calling
You're there to catch us when we're falling
Your favorite name is Father
Eternal King.. Alpha and Omega.. Jehovah God.. The mighty One
So many names You've given us to call You
But one remains
Your favorite name
Abba Father
Holy is Your name
i was having my moment while listening to newsong (rescue-live worship) album- which to me perhaps one of the best album around.. soon after some of the lyrics started to sink in me. one of the song talks about Father and it kinda made me reflect on what God is to me once again. i like to think of Him as my best friend, one who is always there even when the whole world walks out on me. i reflected further and realized that Father is a better description.
He loves, He observes, He disciplines, He punishes me as needed, He listens, He is wise, He provides, He protects, He is close, He is always there to see me through though sometimes i don't really care to look for Him. He will never abandon me. I am more valuable than His own life.
sometimes children just don't appreciate You and we just can't love You as much as You do.
Father.. have i been a good girl? a disappointment?
then as i was reading matthew 14 on 'john the baptist beheaded',a few things came to my mind.
when you promise, you have to deliver. it's wise not to say an oath too fast.
Herod was a fool but He stood by his own integrity, his own word. unfortunately for this case, it costs John's head.
be careful with words, may it be to God or to others... do i mean what i say?
listening >> every day's another day (journey to eternity) - newsong
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