this word just came back to me. last nite we tried to get a cab home, seemingly to be mission impossible, there were too many people and no cab.. look what valentine day has done to us. at the end we decided to call for one instead, but all the lines were busy, it was madness. after many attempts, we almost gave up and took bus before i decided to try the cab line just one more time and yes we got it.
i'm not saying that i'm very good in persevering, in fact there are many times that i give up halfway, or even full of complaints. best example will be times when i play dota lousily, the guys can testify for this haha. but i believe that God calls us to always persevere in times of difficulties. not just a blind positive thinking or trying to deceive oneself, but really believe that certain things can be done. i persevered on my studies when the days were tough, on finding job when most of the interviews failed me, on getting the permit to work here even as many times i cried due to discouragement, i pray that i will always be reminded of these. what is a small setback, discouragement, fear or insecurity? i refuse to give up.
there are few things in my life that i wonder if it will be better for me to give them up. maybe my perseverance has become a stubbornness. or maybe i am just plain stupid. but i won't stop believing as i keep my petition to God, not even when the whole world think differently, not till the end. as this is the path that i take, if i may quote esther, if i perish i perish (that sounds too serious somehow =p)
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i just came back from another bday treat with the 2 bros who aspire to be my wedding hosts in the future (if that day really comes) hahaa.. been having good meals for the past few days that i feel really bad for my tummy. will compensate it with more exercises ^^
i had 2 jap meals from yesterday alone, the sakae lunch was quite surprising, what was meant to be one on one date with shuz became 5 ppl; roy, eugene and dewen were there as well >< really appreciate it, they know all the things that i like, from the right food to the right gifts and the right cake. haha. i guess you just need to be around me longer and you can read me like a book. anyway it's always the companion that matters, and i'm so blessed to have these wonderful ppl around me.
had dinner with susi and nicole in the evening, it was of course crowded everywhere so we decided to eat at this jap restaurant at purvis st. waited for the food for almost one hour but it's quite delicious so we forgave them. we talked much about our recent trip to hometown, susi has lots of funny stories.. went back to bugis junc and met up with shirls n the gang afterwards so we all gathered at coffee bean for a while, the blessed dewen was surrounded by 7 girls. haha.
i was talking to a few of my ex-sheep and my old high school classmates on msn these few days also, it's funny yet great that my bday has become a way for us to catch up with one another. one of my best friends julie is coming back from sydney next month, i haven't seen her for almost 6 years and somehow that's quite unbelievable. how time flies.
listening >> kissing a fool - michael buble *livi* 2:34 PM
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livi grace melinda
14/02/82
love everything but durian