just having my own peaceful time at home now. and in times like these, as usual, i think a lot. what if i die today? i'm pretty sure that i'll go to heaven but i think i will have lots of regrets here.. things that i have not done, things that i have done. what will happen to the ppl around me? how many lives have i made a difference to? who will i be remembered as? a mentor? a friend? a nobody? i wanna use my life more as a person that i'm supposed to be, fully. it's wrong to think that we can live another 40-50 years cos the truth is nobody knows.
maybe i got this thought from the movie that i've just watched.. went out with germs after ss, just wanted to catch a movie. the initial plan was to play basketball, but she couldn't get her poly 'gang' haha.. so she suggested ping pong which of course i said no to.. playing chess was out of question.. (she has weird suggestions).. we couldn't hang out at coffee shop due to my abstain from all the sweet stuff.. so guess movie was the only alternative. we settled on 'just like heaven' cos she doesn't dare to watch emily rose. well it's quite a good show, very sweet romantic comedy.. anyway the whole thing about the main gal being dead just made me ponder about my life now. oh well~
rights.. i deem yesterday as my last day in helping out for service/floor managing (excluding xmas). i don't think i'll come down anymore except for spt. eevoon has done a great job, had a good talk with her yesterday and i really believe she will make a great improvement to the whole team.. from glory to glory. funny. i feel light. somehow God has finally let me see certain things in a diff way =)
this morning susi woke me up at 630. i find it amazing that we could reach on time for holy com preparation at 730 am considering that's the time i usually wake up. it was great to see some ppl were there even earlier to prepare and pray (the musicians, WL, singers, tech crews, ushers etc) giving up your own comfort and sleep to come so early for God's kingdom, when i saw them i was just thinking.. yes, this is how life is supposed to be. what is 730 am? i'm inspired to wake up early every sunday, shouldn't be late for prayer meet ><
listening >> (there's gotta be) more to life - stacie orrico definitely. *livi* 7:21 PM
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livi grace melinda
14/02/82
love everything but durian