i was doing some calculation and it dawned upon me that i do not have any savings. sigh.. whatever that i receive each month will be all used.. and this is not good. not that i don't want to save up, but sometimes you know.. you just need to spend. medical fee.. dental fee.. home appliances hmm.. daily necessities.. spent a bomb on food.. gifts.. hrmm upgrading my pc.. bills.. and this thing came to my mind.. church building fund. yah once again this thought just came to me: can i skip my cbf this month? if only i don't need to give... geez.. how can i be so stingy with God when i can spend a lot on myself and others? God is not stingy with me, think again.. that cbf is nothing compared to what He has and is and will give me. giving to God can be so hard at times but i just have to do the right thing. and willingly >_< maybe i should cut my expenses on food. hahah... need to go on diet anyway.
oh well~ weekend.. attended services.. hmm for the first time i went home so early on sat, funny haha but i maximised it with a good rest. i wanna thank few ppl that have been so sweet these few days, showing care and concern which actually no need la =p (to avoid embarrassment i won't say names) by calling/sms/msn and someone even came down to my house to accompany me.. just to say hi and ask how i am. it feels really warm inside =) i made a prayer for emotional breakthrough during ps ben's altar call, i really hate it when emotions get over me, especially the not so good ones. it's scary how i can think of all the negative sides of situations and people.
monday has always been a tiring day, so after work i went back to watch some anime, soon fell asleep and woke up to realize that i missed the 'top model' argghh, received some missed calls plus msn messages asking me for dota wahaha... after one week rest (not counting the 1v1 with guo on sunday thanks to jon who bluffed me grrrr), it's hard to reject the offer. couldn't really sleep after that so decided to touch my guitar again.. until 3 am.. oops. =p *livi* 6:21 PM
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livi grace melinda
14/02/82
love everything but durian