Friday, February 25, 2005
by zhen yan ^_^
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Wednesday, February 23, 2005
i'm exhausted. my recent fave activity certainly is to doze off.. anytime, anywhere.. i feel like i'm running out of battery. and when i do, i tend to be 'not so responsive' towards everything around me. as what some ppl say, i'm turning to vili.. full time vili..attended another mm training last night, it's really a blessing to be able to learn all those things for free, but at the end of the day have to use it fully for the kingdom. i think i will spend most of time doing editing next week.. and that means i have to charge myself even more.
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great time spent on sunday, hannah did a wonderful job in organizing the bulletin retreat, with games, games and errm games.. oh well got food too haha.. i realized that there are so many meetings and retreat around me, i guess it's inevitable when you have 7 1/2 ministries to think of. it makes me think again how amazing God is, to use me.. ME... an ultimate slacker to take up so many things...
on sunday nite did somethin that i haven't been doing for ages, to hang out with pearl and germs.. it was great.. just to sit down and talk, watched tv, shared some things, played with oscar (the only dog that slept with me before ^^), took photos and yah having meal of course haha.. i always believe in spending quality time, and pearl mentioned this in her blog - simple place, simple meal, lasting friendship.. waa that was a good one ^^
as this week is the friendship week (it is right?) can't help to think of all my buddies.. you know who you are...
for just saying 'hi' to me even when there's nothing important to talk about;
for putting a smile onto my face.. almost everytime ^^;
for knowing my down times and show concern when i don't expect it at all;
for sharing your ups and downs together with me too;
for receiving all my rubbish and unreasonable behaviour, bear with me more k;
for being honest to me;
for .. believe it or not.. stepping on my toes.. just don't do it too often;
for understanding me so well that sometimes words are not even needed;
for thinking, praying and wanting the best for me;
for being a great companion to run this race till the end;
... and i know you'll stand by me no matter what...
friends are amazing right? it gives me another reason to be sooo grateful to God, not only that He's the best friend that we can find, but to give me friends that i can't possibly find outside, i know it will last cos He's in the center.
How did God lead me to you?
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Friday, February 18, 2005
how big is your appetite? your desire to come nearer to God? sometimes the things that i do every sat make me feel really dry, can't even have a proper pnw time, not to mention praying and be ministered.. it's time to be refreshed man... i'm desperate for it.. two hours to the combined prayer meet, can't wait. ***
i had a good cry on tue.. all because of meimei....
not that she bullied me but because she brought me to watch that super sad korean movie- a moment to remember... (T_T)
haha anyway it's fun watching together, especially with the 'kacang putih' joke.. =p
....i realized that cinema is my best friend....
it's been a wonderful week, managed to meet up with my comrades to discuss bout the 3rd ss, ooh what can i do without you guys??? you have made my headache more bearable, the no 3 doesn't sound so scary anymore. thanks for being so faithful in planning the teams, recruitment and all the little little things in the ministry. our team hope has grown sooo so big and with the 3rd ss and uni coming over, it will be even more challenging to take care, but it makes us feel even more excited also right?? we will definitely grow in quantity and quality! ^^
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Monday, February 14, 2005
i spent the first moment of this 23rd year of my life with worship unto our dear father. right around midnight i just took the guitar and hid in a corner of the living room, having those quiet and special moment.. thinking back about what i've been through, His grace and faithfulness. the only reason i could stay strong..indeed.
dear all, thank you ^^
have been receiving many sms of wishes and prayer this one whole day, even from the unexpected ppl. though my bill will surely go up cos i have to reply all the sms =p i still feel very blessed.. definitely.
thanks mandy for the ice-cream treat on sat night, think about it she's my grandshepherd =) we talked about quite a lot of stuff, nice.
and of course can't forget my loving unit hahaah.. celebrated together with val during cg yesterday, had my second blackforrest cake, real flour (thanks arh meimei ^^) and funny moments everytime the guys said "spin the wheel" don't know if i wanted to laugh or kill them... well anyway i was so blessed by the encouragement.. i really love this family of God.
rushed down to city for a nice thai buffet with my parents after that, i was so totally bloated.. a great time spent, and even talked to my elder bro thru phone, something that i haven't been doing for ages. i really pray he's doing fine and i think i can hear the wedding bell's ringing =)
met mei again in the late afternoon, ended up watching recital at arts centre, well jacob's playin there also. guitar, harp, flute, saxophones... it was nice.
still not tired of fellowship, i'm going to spend this day of love later with my cg, and susi's finally back too.. don't have to spin the wheel. hahah...
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Saturday, February 12, 2005
so blessed by the ushers.. it was really nice and thoughtful of you guys and gals =) love the flowers and cards. i shall continue to grow spiritually and keep my joyful spirit as you all wished hahah and in exchange you guys must keep giving your best in serving ok! ^^as i was watching the mm clip for shepherds appreciation today (1st ss), couldn't help but to feel so touched that my tears struggling to come out.. i remembered all my past shepherds and all the wondrous things they've done in my life.. if susi's there i think i'd have given her a big hug hehe.. anyway it's a blessing to have shepherds right?
we love cos God loves us
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Friday, February 11, 2005
still in the mood of holiday.. thinking about some things this morning and i couldn't help to feel a bit angry about what has happened last night, i am not a punch bag ok.. don't snap at me like that!! then God reminded me that sometimes i can behave like that too, who am i to judge or to feel angry. i guess i was just at the wrong time and wrong place, or should i say wrong action to wrong person.. but then i was just trying to be nice... oh well.... i have to have a bigger heart after all.***
been spending time with my group a lot this new year, went for constantine on wed night, kinda sprained my neck ^^ walked around the area and saw this car ride (for children) where roy offered to pay for movie tix if yaoguo sat on it hhaaha but i guess he wanted to keep his reputation more than $8.50.
yesterday made a trip down to veron n val's house. shufen really amazed me big time =) we had lunch together then, really A LOT of food.. and wanna thank ron for being such a great host, she's so busy serving us. we went to nic's place after that, followed by a meal at sakae. some funny things happened (that i shall not disclose) and yan2 just couldn't stop laughing.. and this hendra didn't even realize that it's not a buffet meal until i reminded him to choose the plates wisely hahah... well it's another great time spent.
i reached home and excited to watch apprentice, on the tv and saw american idol instead.. for few seconds i was confused.. then i realized it's thursday not sunday bwahaha... ok blur liao.. i had a good laugh at myself.
rights.. happy bday to valerie! ^^
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
day 1 and i shall spend it lazing around at home (somethin that i've been wanting to do) hahah...
last night was very funny, i finally gave up on the cine heels, sometimes shouldn't be too stubborn, so i went to suntec to meet shirls and found another nice pair there. we walked around trying to find a nice place to eat but apparently almost all shops and restaurants were closed, we began to think if we would end up eating chicken burger at mac for reunion haha.. but at the end we settled at crystal jade (the la-mian xiao long bao) well it was a good dinner..
then a bit later in the night we went over to pastor jeff n claudia's house, eelee was with us too. it was a very sumptuous steamboat for supper i'd say, i was the first one to KO.. simon, pastor ben and dinah were there too.. we ended the day by playing bridge and it's really really funny with all the wrong signals given to wrong partners (that makes bridge interesting) haha... all in all it was a great time spent. i really thank God for their hospitality =)
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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
i've never been so desperate for a pair of shoes before. saw this kinda nice pair (heels) at cine with nic some weeks ago, after much consideration i decided to buy it. so went back there with meimei last sat, but the shop was closed for re-stocking, on sunday i went there again and the shop was still closed. kept thinkin about it, i made my 4th trip down there alone yesterday, and the shop was still closed! (T_T) what is this? why can't just let me buy that pair??? determined as i am, i shall go down there everyday till the shop re-opens. just hope that they still have it..
yesterday my poor left foot was stepped on 3 times, with one of the culprit was actually wearing a very sharp, pointed heels.. happily landed on one of my toes. limping out of the scary mrt (trust me, mrt can be a very scary place), i couldn't help but to feel annoyed, but then this thought came to my mind, at least i still have feet for ppl to step on, and i can still go around lookin for nice heels for myself and i thank God for it...
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there are some things that.. the more you look at it the more you love it.. and that happens to the very early bday gift that i got from david haha but seriously the card meant much more that i can't help but to feel so blessed. thanks buddy =)
cny is here.. errmm happy chinese new year ppl! ^^
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Friday, February 04, 2005
i have to catch up with old buddies.. pearline heard that you're officially a UL now.. (but then false alarm) hmm ahha it's ok.. suddenly the memory of attending the ulc came back to me.. those nights where the guys (ethan, dewen, junyao n daryl) kept making jokes in the class and shirls had to make sure they wouldn't be a disgrace hahaah, gwen and sharlene always sat at the back and had late night supper together with us at mac.. pearls.. my greatest company thru-out the classes hehe.. hmm funny how the things turn out now, only God knows where's the best place for all of us, according to His plan.. and i'm grateful for it.
thinking >> maybe i shouldn't joke too much.. i don't want to be a monkey =(
listening >> this is my life - salvador
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Thursday, February 03, 2005
'finding neverland' is something that i haven't seen for long. such a beautiful story that brought me back to my childhood imagination and evoked my emotions deeply at some parts. i'm not being paid for advertisement here, but i think it's really a wonderful movie that worth all cents of your movie tix. i really have to thank justin for forcing oops i mean persuading me to watch.
happy birthday to my greatest comrade for all these times-- joe!
such a great brother who always help me with the never ending duties ^^
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
-i'm amazed with God who can make the impossible possible-
it struck my mind that i'm no longer that very young, not that i feel old, but.. there are some things that i used to think but i won't think anymore, things that i like that i don't really like anymore, things that i talk about that i don't talk anymore... i guess some of my mindset has changed now that i've jumped to the working society.. yah it really makes a difference.
went for another video production training on mon and this time was about sound. man the class was like some engineering class haha.. but at the end we did have practical lesson too.. it was fruitful, i found that i've been picking up quite a no of new skills lately, which is good ^^
last night susi, shufen and me went out for shopping again.. it seems like i've been shopping a lot lately but actually didn't really buy anything, some things are just hard to get.. nevertheless it was a great time spent.
feeling >> grateful for the people that God put around me
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