Tuesday, May 31, 2005
it is complete. oooo i love it... at last i got to watch star wars eps 3 last nite, since the whole group has watched already (T_T) so i got shirls to go with me. hey i think i watched eps 2 with her also! anyway, i think it's great, definitely not a disappointment after all the long waiting. just kewl~i realized how blessed i am to have so many friends around, oh well sometimes i do have to be thick-skinned for it =p
do you know that ps bk (outside seats) is one of the best place to hang out on sat nite? cos a lot of hope ppl will pass that place as they want to go home haha.. thanks wenjun for the yummy yoghurt treat.. i'm enlightened; and junyao for being..erm simply crappy (that's a compliment!)
i ate too much sweet stuff these few days.. but who can resist nice desserts?? cheesecake, hot fudge choc, tiramisu, strawberry shortcake, brownies.. aah~
one of the many 'sundays with ywam' photos-
warning: careful with your msn conversation.. sometimes you just don't know who you're talking to! even the most unthinkable person can play a prank on you -_-
phew.. thank God i didn't do anything stupid-
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Friday, May 27, 2005
i can't really remember but maybe i made a prayer to God before to grow in the area of patience. cos now He's really testing my patience haha.. let's see.. more than half an hour waiting for the bus.. almost 4 hours waiting at ICA.. 2 years waiting for my pass.. yah.. amazing. it's been week of disappointment.. cos bo bice didn't win booohooohooo... what on earth? sigh...
and i stayed awake to watch liverpool won instead of milan?? diao...
oh well but it doesn't matter anymore cos God is still good and i made a few decisions this week that kinda made me feel reaally good.. been reading the book of psalm.. just love it.
let my mind be filled with You-
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
back.. after 6 yrs, the church decided to reward the leaders again with spring! refresher aka retreat on sun-mon. it was fantastic, i felt so blessed that i just have to share this out-sun 22nd afternoon-
roy gave us the wrong gathering timing (ok not really his fault actually).. me and bao reached YWCA way too early so we helped dasmond out with the preparation. without realising, more and more ppl came. the feeling is just like having church camp, i saw many familiar faces, started to take pic here and there. the registration time was super long, so we went to have lunch with jasmine first at ps. back to YWCA, wenjun's finally there! brunei didn't change him at all =)
we checked into the rooms and went to ps again (for the 3rd time in a day). basically we were just trying to slack first before the event started-
evening-
after great time of pnw with all those ancient but very ministering songs, pastor shared bout the most basic lesson of all, remaining in God.. having an intimate relationship with Him.
a thought: it's possible for us to do a lot of things for God everyday without real relationship with Him.
but how long can you last?
God spoke to me clearly in two areas of my life as ps dinah prayed for me during the ministering time. it made me frozen in amazement for a second, "how did she know? i never really told anyone about it.. i think it's true" but God knows everything and He revealed to me through her. a reminder, an assurance.. the presence of the Lord was so strong.
after everything, we gathered in bao's room and roy wanted to have another round of midnight prayer, so we did. everything was poured out, four of us just kept on praying and praying... and yes prayer can do wonders.
i went back to my room feeling great, but my 'neighbours' were making a bit of noise errmmm so i went there to join them hahah i saw meihwa (that would explain the noise), huixian, jeremiah, donnie, collin, donald.. we played games together for a while.. funny games ^^
monday 23rd-
the guys had to wake me up cos i slept like a log =p
afternoon was the highlight of the day, cos we played 'amusing race'!! thank God for pris who prepared sooo well, everybody was having so much fun =D well it's actually a simple version of amazing race, with 26 teams competing. i was in team P and i didn't really know my fellow team members at first, we only had short introduction and bonding during lunch time. with 8 girls and 1 guy in a team, i have to say that we did a great job haha..
there were 11 stations to complete along the orchard road and all of us really ran all the way man.. madness.. we managed to skip 4 stations cos of the fast forward - none other than eating raw celery and onions (thank God for everyone) bwahaha and yes we finished the race 3rd!!! unbelievable hahaa... well we didn't really get any prize but to beat 23 teams was a big satisfaction.. no i should say.. to finish the race itself was a big satisfaction!
but after that all of us were lying on the floor half dead and yah we're all smelly.. ><
it's great to see the other teams finishing the race one by one, and the last team received a big clap n standing ovation =)
evening was the time for presentations from each district. tertiary had a slapstick show -_- that almost made me fall from the chair; the youth ermm i'm not sure how to describe hahaha... ; but the best one came from the adult.. they had this drama about missionaries and star wars.. ok it's hard to imagine how to link these 2 together hahaa but it was really very funny and it made us think about how our prayer can help the missions.
we closed the day with breaking plates with all our struggles written on them. all of us took turn in using the hammer, it felt like we're breaking certain walls in our hearts with it.
it was only 2 days and 1 night event but i think we're all enjoying it so much.. and we didn't even have to pay a single cent. pastor mentioned how it will be like when we complete the race together and receive the crown from God.. gosh it's much much better compared to any amusing race. people come and people go, but isn't it wonderful if all of us as a family can end this race together?
if only we could stay longer haha..
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passage of the day- Romans 4: Abraham Justified by Faith
20Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, 21being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. 22This is why "it was credited to him as righteousness."
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Sunday, May 22, 2005
do you believe in coincidence? nah.. everything is planned by God. i went to the worship nite again with meimei, we spent a great time of worship and prayer there. personally i think it was amazing, i left nexus feeling very light. it's been ages since the last time i felt God in such a way..
actually we didn't plan to go at first, cos me and mei wanted to reward ourselves with a nice dinner at hard rock. but somehow we knew that we could go there anytime. so we did.. hahaa went there last night after ss.. nice dinner.. nice desserts.. nice band.. good talk. enjoyed it big time ^^
mei wanted to steal the menu and i was totally high on mineral water hahaa....
thinking >> it's clear.
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Thursday, May 19, 2005
ushers on missions ss ^^
yesterday i've finally had a chance to talk to my high school best friend- lily.. it has been ages and gosh she is married >_<
last week was her wedding in sydney but she's having another party in jakarta next week, asking me to go. as much as i want to be there, it's impossible (T_T)
i am reaaally reaally happy for her.. can't describe how i feel man.. it's just so great when one of your closest one is married, though i can only remember her as 18 yrs old gal..
life is amazing.
what i've learnt these few days:
- unhurried life.. more patience no matter how irritating my office pc can be.. geez i just can't figure out if it's virus.. sigh
- dee dah day.. if u want to rejoice, today is the day. there's no need to wait for the perfect situation cos it will never come
- my prayer can interrupt heaven. God listens.
the not-so important things:
- bo bice is just cool.. hahaa.. he amazes me somehow.
- there's no way to watch eps 3 this week or even next week, the force is just too strong. well unless you go to those oo-lu cinemas, or first row seats??
- i can't wait for chronicles of narnia this dec.. more patience....
craving for something really cold-
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005
this may add on to your frustration but actually it can be quite fun- get out of the room gameif you just can't find the way out, you can give up and see the solution here
went out with susi for a nice swensens dinner to celebrate her last day of freedom last night.. couldn't help to smile as we discussed things that i did and thought of during cg on sunday.
i know myself.. one stubborn old fool.. i'm reading john ortberg's 'the life you've always wanted' again.. the first chapter just caught me.. disappointed means dis-appointing God. and never ever say 'i am what i am' cos there's hope in transformation. sigh.. i really need cheesecake.. eh i mean need God =p
32 doesn't seem good for an EQ result-
People in this range often find themselves blowing up at their co-workers, even their loved ones. They seem to have less 'buffer' for dealing with change, stress and difficulty. Some people also report depression or feeling 'lost' in life. Are you allowing the 'winds' of change to direct you - instead of setting your own course using an internal compass? Are you responding to life and its challenges with fear and insecurity rather than passion and purpose?
Emotional intelligence can be learned and improved - with big payoffs! Studies of entrepreneurs and employees at some of the world's top organizations, show that EQ counts for twice as much as IQ and technical skills combined in defining who will be a star. Improving EQ results in better relationships, greater health and a happier outlook on life! Areas to work on: Given that self-awareness is the foundation of EQ, you might want to start here on the road to higher EQ.
Ask yourself: - What situations generally create tension and stress for you? How are you handling these situations? - What negative thoughts play over and over in your mind on a regular basis? Are these a true picture of reality? - Are you afraid to share your needs and feelings with others? Is it because you are taking care of everyone else - being a martyr - or acting 'the strong, silent type'?
If we have trouble expressing our emotional needs - if we regularly put others needs before our own - there's a good chance that we will one day wake up feeling empty, hostile, or depressed. Don't let this happen to you! Take care of yourself! Express your key needs. It may be difficult at first - but research shows it will be a win-win. So move into the 'zone of discomfort' to express those needs and you will be rewarded for your hard work several times over! This is one of the key steps to building emotional intelligence. You'll be happier - and those around you will understand you better, and be grateful for the feedback.
Remember, if life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we respond, then we hold the power to create the lives we want!
hmmmm... 90%... that's a decision.
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Sunday, May 15, 2005
i'm dedicating this to germaine.. happy bday =) (dd. 14 may)knew you for quite few years, from a very disobedient sheep who just loved to bite.. to a leader.. a shepherd that you've become now.. gal you've come a long way but yet there are more from God to come. it's a joy to have you around buddy.. will try to find a hairy man for you bwaahaha.
ooooh i need to rest.. and cheese cake.. hot choc fudge.. a nice shower...
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Friday, May 13, 2005
i felt like a mad woman, kept running and running without even knowing where i was heading to and the time was 11 pm. susi said i used this so called exercise to vent my frustration, maybe she's right. but it's a good one, i can't remember the last time i really perspired like that, and it's definitely better than gobbling myself up with food. but i shouldn't have jogged too long, it's making me dizzy.
i have one million questions in my mind- gosh it never rains but it pours- what a mess.
maybe i should jog again tmw.. and the day after that.. and the day after that..
PS. happy bday shufen!
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Thursday, May 12, 2005
nothin to do so i took this from joel's revived blog-livi, Your personality is Phlegmatic Melancholy.
Your scores are below
Melancholy:9
Phlegmatic:20
Sanguine:9
Choleric:2
hey it's true, this is quite accurate. those who know me well will nod together with me.
My Emotions
Low-key personality
Easygoing and relaxed
Calm, cool and collected
Patient well balanced
Consistent life
Quiet but witty
Sympathetic and kind - not many has seen this side of me =p
Keeps emotions hidden
Happily reconciled to life
All-purpose person
Unenthusiastic
Fearful and worried
Indecisive
Avoids responsibility
Selfish
Too shy and reticent
Too compromising
Self-righteous
At Work
Peaceful and agreeable
Has administrative ability
Mediates problems
Avoids conflicts
Good under pressure
Finds the easy way
Not goal oriented
Lacks self motivation
Hard to get moving
Resents being pushed
Lazy and careless
Would rather watch
As a Friend
Easy to get along with
Pleasant and enjoyable
Inoffensive
Good listener
Dry sense of humor - hah???
Enjoys watching people
Has many friends
Has compassion and concern
Dampens enthusiasm
Stays uninvolved
Is not exciting
Indifferent to plans
Judges others
Sarcastic and teasing - i have repented on this one
Resists change
Free Personality
and i have a bit of sang (more on the good ones) and mel (more on the bad ones -_-) personality here and there. i think it's good to evaluate yourself, know your strength and weakness.
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
i got this from reagan and i think it's a good one-Brenda was a young woman that wanted to learn to go rock climbing. Although she was scared to death, she went with a group and they faced this tremendous cliff of rock. In spite of her fear, she put on the gear and she took a hold of the rope and started up the face of that rock. Well, she got to a ledge where she could take a breather. As she was hanging on there, whoever was holding the rope up at the top of the cliff made a mistake and snapped the rope against Brenda's eye and knocked out her contact lens.
You know how tiny contact lenses are and how almost impossible to find. Well, here she is on a rock ledge, with who knows how many hundreds of feet behind and hundreds of feet above her. Of course, she looked and looked and looked, hoping that she would be able to find that contact lens.
Here she was, very far from home. Her sight was now blurry. She was very upset by the fact that she wouldn't be anywhere near a place where she could get a new contact lens. And she prayed that the Lord would help her to find it. Well, her last hope was that perhaps when she got to the top of the cliff, one of the girls that was up there on the top might be able to find her contact lens in the corner of her eye.
When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye. There was no contact lens to be found. She sat down with the rest of the party, waiting for the rest of them to come up the face of the cliff. She looked out across range after range of mountains, thinking of that Bible verse that says, "The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth." She thought,"Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every single Stone and leaf that's on those mountains and You know exactly where my contact lens is."
Finally, the time came when it was time to go down. They walked down the trail to the bottom. As they got there, there was a new party of rock climbers coming along. As one of them started up the face of the cliff, she shouted out, "Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?" Well, that would be startling enough, wouldn't it? She had found the contact lens! But you know why she saw it? An ant was carrying that contact lens---it was moving slowly across the face of the rock!!!
What does that tell you about the God of the universe? Is He in charge of the tiniest things? Do ants matter to Him? Of course they do. He made them. He designed them.
Brenda told me that her father is a cartoonist.When she told him this incredible story, he drew a picture of that ant lugging that contact lens with the words "Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You."
If God is in charge of the ants, don't you think He cares about you and me? I guess Solomon was right. One could learn a valuable lesson from that ant -- trust in God. We could probably all say a little more often, "God, I don't know why you want me to carry this load. I see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. Still, if you want me to, I'll carry it for You.
"God doesn't call the qualified; He qualifies the called." - John Tetsola
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i came back from toilet and realized how messy i am.. my hair.. my face.. my eyes.. what a day.. i think i need to go for a run tmw morning, especially after i failed to wake up this morning though i was very determined to last nite. the spirit is willing but the body is weak ><
do you know what's the good thing about running? or jogging? it's one of the best time for thinking.. same as kayaking.. when you're alone with the sky or sea. maybe that's why i used to jog at the beach, can't do it now. hmm does this mean i like to be alone? i'm no team player when it comes to sports haha
what have i been doing these few days? i think i have been spending more time on the big square box in the living room.. the tv.. actually it can be quite entertaining, life is not just anime after all. at least i could see headless corpse on CSI.. man that looks really real.. very interesting.
had a good talk with certain ppl again.. one of them was this person who has left the church for ages, i wasn't very close to him actually but suddenly God just opened the way for me to share something. but yah at the end of the day i can't force anyone to come back.. just pray that God will work in his heart again somehow.
a thought >> dentist are scary creatures, and paying them a visit equals to 10 min in hell. anyway i should be thankful that they fixed whatever problems that i had.. you just love and hate them at the same time.
feeling >> not so crap anymore hahaa...
listening >> the C G D Em song
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Sunday, May 08, 2005
i haven't been blogging and seriously i'm quite lazy to. i can't even remember what has been going on -- i've been talking to certain ppl in the group that i haven't really had the chance to before, just want to know them better, be more interested in their lives, we are family after all. it is hard when the family's big but i know i can, just need more effort.. the dental appointment, the retreat, the parents day ss, the so called unit outing at bishan just now..
i'm at it again.. always back to square one. how can i be so contradicting, don't mention others.. i can't even understand myself. that's why God is needed and i'm glad He's around.
off to my fave time of worship ^^
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