Monday, January 31, 2005
end of Jan and it's been a great month. e-motions are over.. waa three claps for everyone.. the music ss was indeed a great one, though i was preoccupied with the left, middle, right instructions to lights person.. non other than big J and cx who did a great job by the way =) it's so funny, we could feel the tension in the mm room but yet at the same time laughing all the way for some very ermm entertaining segments... at the end big J decided to discard the instructions paper and relied on instinct instead hahah... you could imagine how relieved we were when the david danced item ended.. yah success~
it's very very nice and the musicians did deserve the big treat after that ^^
ss was once again overflowed with ppl, and i have to say well done to joe and the ushers, we're getting more and more experienced in handling overflow haha... well 3rd ss is around the corner, time to do some exercises.
i wonder how many people crossed the line of faith.
at night after dinner- me, wenjun, jus and serene went to this place near atrium (forgot the name), we were discussing about some future mm plans, and this big joke just happened. sigh i don't know how to explain, well basically i was so misunderstood by the waitress.. and they all kept laughing. wanted to find her to say hi and clear the misunderstanding.. she must have thought i'm a very fierce n rude person.. aiyo this is all justin's fault.. haha
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yesterday was another fruitful day, cos i managed to shop a number of clothes >_< with the cg cancelled, morning's just the best time to sleep.. but after that i was left to a state of extreme boredom at home.. well until david came to my rescue hahah... ended up meeting the guys and nicole and yup we went for shopping. there were just lots of funny moments, from roy's choice of shirt, to the guys who were very excited to buy me ice-cream at far east cos i gave them 5 min entertainment full of laughter >< and the ultimate hendra's comment about someone imitating his voice hahaha... oh well it's good to shop with nic, i think most of us did not leave with empty hands.
the difference between clothes that me and shirls bought --
me >> all dark colours- black, grey, blue and mostly long sleeves
shirls >> all bright colours- red, yellow. orange and mostly sporty wear
i begin to wonder if i'm really the younger sister.. hmmm... oh well..
thinking >> what a blessed week we had with an awesome God!
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Friday, January 28, 2005
needed somethin to laugh at, so i browsed thru and found junyao's old entry on 07 August 2003.. that one still amuses me till now hahaha.....
kay i'm gonna share my back-ache journey in my life (with testimony yup)
when i was about 11 yrs old during one PE lesson, it was long jump.. and yah i accidentally fell down when i landed kinda at the back that caused a terrible 'unbelievably painful' back-ache for few days, didn't see any doc, as it's just gone by itself.
a year after that the pain came back, i still dun know why.. it gave me hard time for few days, couldn't really move as i wanted and worse it was painful when i laughed. didn't see any doc, and it's just gone by itself once more.
around end of 2001, i fell down in the bedroom (don't ask me why) and hurt the same spot of my back. the pain was.. arrrgghh... went to combined extended prayer meeting at nexus in the evening, and they had this session of praying for sickness.. feeling very uncomfortable with my back and felt like tearing already, i just went to the front and asked to be prayed by a lady from adult group (can't remember who). as she prayed for me, i felt this strange warmth flowing at my back (serious) it just felt so supernatural. right after that i went back to my seat, and the pain's really totally gone, totally! i was so amazed and still am with God's power in healing.
years passed and yesterday i started to feel the back-ache again, not sure if this got anythin to do with my past ones.. not so bad though, just can't really bend down and the pain is on-off-on-off, feelin a bit like a grandma. shirls was tellin me bout claudia who mentioned that the pain of 'slipped disk' is one of the closest experience to hell .. man i pray that whatever i'm having won't lead me to that.
well my point is .. i should be more careful, not clumsy and fall down all the time.. considering i can win an award for receiving the most blueblack and bruises.. tripped, slipped- stairs, streets, toilet, bedroom.. you name it.. you have it. people, you all should take care also.. don't fall down! *convinced*
-- no more corporate fasting on friday? never knew...
listening >> collection of ff8 soundtrack, hmm good oldies.
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Thursday, January 27, 2005
i was browsing through and felt like doing somethin that i haven't been doing for ages... quizzing.... quite fun and some of the results are.. errmm quite true hahaa....
B+
You're a pro at going with the flow. You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer. A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.
While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done. You're passionate - just selective about your passions
Do You Have a Type A Personality?
You Are the Peacemaker - 9
You are emotionally stable and willing to find common ground with others.
Your friends and family often look to you to be the mediator when there is conflict.
You are easy going and accepting. You take things as they come.
Avoding conflict at all costs, you're content when things are calm.
What number are you?
How Your Attitude Ranks
Your Attitude is Better than 65% of the Population
If you scored...
80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life.
60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.
40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.
20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good.
0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!
How's Your Attitude?
18
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
What Age Do You Act?
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005
i just came back from mm training course by steven at nexus.. quite interesting, few hours just gone without realizing it. after the class i still didn't let him go by asking him some guidance in certain video matters, and yup almost another hour just gone like that haha... since i wanna help wenjun out in this, have to give my best also.. up my skills and have more self training. besides mm is an interesting thing to do, and all the mm ppl say amen.
before that was actually dinner together with the other 82s in the group heh.. yah.. me, eugene, hendra and roy (with me the oldest yes yes i know) hendra made a joke again with his portion of chicken rice ^^ and i think i'm digging my own grave by giving promise to dress like that.. ermm the girl with unique taste. anyway i prefer to wear somethin like trinity. hahah...
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ecclesiastes is an interesting book.. with all the meaningless.
a man can do nothing better than to eat and drink and find satisfaction in his work. this too, I see, is from the hand of God, for without Him, who can eat or find enjoyment?
there is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.
do not pay attention to every word people say, or you may hear your servant cursing you- for you know in your heart that many times you yourself have cursed others.
who can straighten what he has made crooked? when times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
hmmmm.... somehow just... hmm...
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oh well, went for short shopping last night..
me : i saw a very nice black coat at U2, they're having discount.. feel like buying.
shirls : for what??? you got enough jackets and cardigans! and for that price not worth it... don't buy!
we went into the shop, i showed her the coat, she put it on and looked into the mirror..
shirls : waaaaa... so nice... i wanna buy...!!!!
me : -_-
at the end bought the black one for me and she's planning to get the white one too... i guess we'll end up with 2 of those anyway hehe.. it's time to change my wardrobe.
listening >> wooten-
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Sunday, January 23, 2005
we were happy cos ss was over and many converts ^^
yesh though it's a very short ss, but still saw many came to know Jesus. it's good to be off duty once in a while, really did nothin yesterday. it was great to see how the ppl were so excited and supportive towards all the performances (which are great by the way). i had one of my most enjoyable time of praise during 1st ss.. to see the whole auditorium plus africa room went mad- including myself hehe.. it's hard to not perspire even though the air con was full blast. i guess it's really different when you don't need to worry about anything at all (how the ushers.. how the ppl... how the security, etc etc) hahah.... cos i know that they're all doing a great job!
i pray that next sat will be an overflow again and many many many will cross the line of faith. i personally saw the hard work of the musicians in preparing, and it's gonna be a great one ^^
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today we had a very funny shopping day... to shop a top, skirt and nice ladies slippers for someone haha.... won't say names but it's really a breakthrough for her...
it was a great time as a cg, with me, mei and val as old ladies (wanting to find seats all the time) and i realized we always talk about the same certain issues hahah...
oh thanks veron for the 't-shirt surprise' ^^
and justin for being our faithful photographer, we really have quite a collection hehe....
thinking >> my mm homework from wenjun.. need to study... i'll fall asleep...
listening >> everything's changed
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Saturday, January 22, 2005
last night one of my cousin suddenly asking for advice through msn, apparently he got this big problem with his girlfriend erm ditched by her to be exact.
it makes me wonder:
- gosh he's already at that kind of age.. turning 18 this year.. in my mind he's always that small kid (time flies.. tsk tsk)
- why is he asking me, as if i got lots of experiences in love life
- what makes him think that without this girl, he cannot stay alive.... i mean how can your girlfriend determines your life and death?
- what makes him think that he will never be able to change, overcome his weakness.
oh well but i guess i did use this opportunity to share from biblical point of view, God's always in control, if the girl is not the one chosen by God for you, why must you force yourself to think that she is.
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i'm all burnt.. don't need blusher liao. thank God for mandy and all the retreat organizer yesterday, it was really fun. and i'm still amazed with the amount of food.. had 4 rounds of meal myself hahah... got to know other marcom ppl better also. they psycho me to kayak, the sun was scorching hot.. madness i could feel all the burning in my skin, but i would never fail to enjoy kayaking after all, the wind was so strong and it made me go even faster woooh it's a very nice feeling..
why do i like to go to the sea so much? the blue sky, beautiful clouds, vast sea on bright sunny day, what a wonderful God we have to create such wonderful things ^^
today is the first part of e-motions.. i do pray for salvation for many.
ss with the best performances without a single convert is a failure-
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Friday, January 21, 2005
this was taken after "the incredibles" ^^
i realized that i watch movie with them a lot heh.. went for 'aviator' just now, something that most ppl won't appreciate i guess, due to the length of the movie (yah it's almost 3 hrs) and too many conversation. but to me, all in all it's a nice show with interesting story line. yah i did enjoy it (unlike someone who almost fell asleep haha)
harp, flute, violin, guitar... what a wonderful combination. all those hard work downloading more than 100 inuyasha soundtrack... boy i'm satisfied....
listening >> fukai mori (instrumental)
time to take the guitar out and play!
** expecting a great day at east coast retreat later ^^
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Thursday, January 20, 2005
for one second i was feeling very sick of waiting and this very uncomfortable feeling of uncertainty, something that i'd say will determine my life.... can't help but looking at the phone all the time but it just doesn't ring... this verse came to my mind - psalm 130:5
yeah i've been waiting for almost 20 months anyway, what's another few days? in His word i place my trust. shall wait.
the Lord is with me - i shall not be afraid
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phew no more quietness in office, i've burned more than 1000 songs to a dvd and brought it here and yeah i can even have pnw hahaha... thank God for the thick door, making sure the sound doesn't travel out and bother my colleagues. music can really make a difference -
i was reading a book this morning and it kinda amazed me:
a black woman was walking on the street with her children when a white man spat in her face. she stopped and said,"Thank you, and now for the children." Nonplussed, the man was unable to respond.
that's something that i have to learn.....
listening >> God is here - Abundant Life Ministries
what an amazing song.
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Monday, January 17, 2005
i can't help but to fall asleep in office.. in this kind of environment where it's just so quiet, nobody's around and nothin much to do, plus the cough mixture that works like an anaesthetic (trying to justify myself)
just read the book of Job again and am still amazed of how someone being put under such a big ordeal. but eventually still praised God for His greatness and faithfulness. yup compared to Job, i think what we're going thru is really errm.. not worth mentioning.
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sometimes there are just funny moments in cg. wenjun and his "heart attack with doctor and missy" games - somehow i became the first to die sigh...; hendra who never stop to amuse me with his poses; eugene who tried to sing that holy song for holy com (great effort ^^) and this tbk and his yoga style during teaching... chuckled*
cg is a great time to be ministered, to learn and yet to relax and have fun too. how can ppl not be excited to come and gather with your bro and sis in christ in such meaningful activity? i really treasure these times and as i have started working, weekends have been so precious indeed.
yesterday was a day full of meetings, met the team hope leaders again and am really excited for some upcoming changes that we will have, of course to be better ^^
SPT was a fruitful one too, it's something that we won't miss for the world, cos you may not know how the rest sabo you when you're not around heh.. you have no say in voting when you're not there right.
ended the day with "chit-chat" with susi haha shepherdin la... planned to go to breko in holland actually, and i really miss the providence bread too, but it was kinda late so we settled in somerset area instead. next time shall set aside time for it!
thinking >> am i really ready to make the cheesecake? the recipe is so.. erm.. complicated.
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Friday, January 14, 2005
by justin choo... only half of my head, but it's nice right? ^^
never knew that cough can be so scary. woke up in the middle of the night, suddenly coughed very badly n for a moment i couldn't really breathe, it has become.. kinda scary... and sometimes i feel like vomitting when i can't stop coughing, like pregnant woman... it's time to be more serious... no more fried stuff, cold stuff, chilli....
my dad's here again, talked about how my family's doing back there, suddenly i kinda miss my brother, i used to be sooo close to him, but am glad that he's doing well, not to mention that i may have a sis in-law soon, haha that will be interesting... she's so blessed to have me as her to be sis in-law hahaha.....
listening >> eternity
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Wednesday, January 12, 2005
me and ywam welfare minister (also known as ng millionaire) ^^
keep going out like these few days and i will really end up penniless haha... today had a funny dinner time with wenjun, dewen and susi. we met at tampines (what a place to meet), they were like hungry ghost.. wanna buy and eat everything. with my bad cough, i still enjoyed the fries and ice-cream.. oh well suffering from it now. but anyway God really bless them to be together in camp now. i think wj did pray hard for it ^^
last night was another fruitful time of marcom meeting, thanks amy and serene, i think they will make wonderful leaders, though ET's not around now. and as usual me, hannah and jerel as trio musketeers haha... we did work together for very long.. one blink and years passed..
alright decided to take mc later, i really need to rest.
listening >> canon in harp and flute version... (close eyes and wonder.. am i in heaven?)
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Monday, January 10, 2005
i really hate to go to doctor, but i guess sometimes you just need to do things that you don't like. the medicine is making me drowsy especially with the office so quiet.. and with the never ending cough, really feel like doing nothing now... oh well i guess i'm still blessed compared to those getting chicken pox.
yesterday i brought one of my ex-sheep john to adult ss, wanted to connect him to one of the group there. couldn't find anyone that i really know (as everyone seems to attend the 9am ss), but God has planned nicely for us haha i was sitting beside cryst who happens to be one of the central leader, she introduced us to the whole group, went for lunch together and voila i found a new cg for john! it's just so easy to click, a bunch of nice ppl. i'm so glad for him to find this new family, praying that in the new group he'll be able to grow ^^
thinking >> sunday is precious.
quiz --
when i coughed very badly, shirls said:
a. "let me pray for you"
b. "go away, you're infectious"
hint: my sister is very loving. hahah....
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Thursday, January 06, 2005
this was taken almost a year ago ^^ full and satisfied...
oooh we just love fish and co... after the previous trip for the nice seafood platter meal which was almost a year ago (with my cousin on my left and yes shuzhen on my right >> refer to photo) and shirls was there also, finally had the nice meal again today haha... decided to ditch sakae sushi and gave shirls fish and co treat instead. ooh so satisfied but now have to control my expenses more ^^
my cough is getting from bad to worse....
thinking >> i can't have the whole world, have to be contented with what i have now
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
end of conference ^^
hehe i like this pic of me and susi.. nice one- thx joel.
it has been raining everyday that i could hardly wake up in the morning, 8 am seems like 6 am. well doing accounting does keep me awake in office and time really flies as i keep looking at those numbers, surprisingly it is quite fun.
just spent quite a lot on dvd writer and all the discs, but shopping in sim lim makes me feel very happy, more than shopping clothes hahah... it's a very interesting place and yah thanks a million to clarence who helped me all the way in installing.
today met meimei again, though both of us were coughing a lot, we still consumed those erm 'unhealthy n bad for throat' food =p
listening >> fightman - casiopea
thinking >> their solo is just sooo cool... definitely one of my all time fave.
trust me- highly recommended for those who never heard before ^^
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Sunday, January 02, 2005
it's been 2 days since new year and i broke my resolution to not to be late twice. hahaha....
today was a day of good meal and shopping with all the girls, well except susi who's still in china, wonder when she's coming back.. anyway supposed to meet at 1130 and that's the time i woke up in shock... talking bout discipline... well guess i was too tired. but it's really an enjoyable day though the sky was as dark as ermm basically very dark.
been spending time a lot with them, we had the countdown at veron's house (girls overnight) and had a really good laugh over certain things that are definitely covenanted among us hahaha...
made this list few days ago and decided to post it also---
31st Dec 04
it's end of the year and suddenly i feel like making a list... for the year 2004...
fave gift- benny! he's dirty but lovely
fave outing- anything that got to do with kayaking
fave games- bridge and mahjong haha
fave eating place- sakae sushi .. always with shirls
fave shopping place- believe it or not, toa payoh
fave album- have to name 3: live from another level (Israel&New Breed); Salvador; Carried me:the worship project (Jeremy Camp)
fave piece of music- pachelbel canon
fave choc- ritter sports rum n raisin
most memorable time- too many to say
most emotional time- quite a number.. a year full of tears out of sadness, disappointment, frustration, anger n also joy and encouragement haha
most physically n mentally tiring moment- moving out of holland to serangoon
most shocking moment- not henge.. but when jasmine said i'd be transfered to ywam
most touching moment- when someone said i am part of the family
most painful moment- the terrible swollen eye
most embarassing yet funny moment- to fall down so beautifully near istana park
bought the most- earrings
said the most- i'm hungry
biggest struggle- gluttony hahah no.. something else that only i know..
received the most- photos from justin
place hang out the most- borders, no.. should be home
times missed the most- those fun days in holland
breakthrough- learned to do mm stuff
things learnt- willingness to do anything without complaining, even when no one appreciates
blessed moment- all the times.. really a blessed year
the list can go on and on... definitely a memorable year ^^
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i just talked to someone dear, she was sharing some things. unexpectedly she told me that i have carried her like the footprint story. felt so touched n blessed.. glad that i made an impact on someone's life before. but all the things and gifts that you said i have are given by God, it's never me. i could carry you because God carried me. isn't it wonderful to know that you can use your life to make a difference in someone's life?
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