Monday, November 29, 2004
praying for xmas harvest and many many more...
fasting from meat -- day 1
had lunch with my friend... "auntie, i want fried fish soup.. erm without the fish.." should have taken pic of that auntie's face.. haha... ok so far so good, i survived without any meat today.
feeling great these days.. to wake up early.. really take time to read the bible, pray and worship, plus the 2 fasting that i'm doing.. refreshed by God.. the more you are closer to God, the more you feel that everything is good even though things are still bad.
something learnt : there are some things that you need to fight for.. don't give up too fast
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my thanksgiving of the week:
thank God for... my off day last sat which i haven't had for ages... for veron who recommended me to that pair of sandals, which i love a lot by the way... priscilla for her great support in ushers, praying for her to settle down in US soon... for adrian who gave me such a great offer and settled my conference gifts headache... for justin who must be dead tired now trying to hit all the deadlines by himself, so sorry that i can't help you much anymore, feeling quite bad =(
for my friend lina, being so nice and patient.... for my dear sister who just made me mad again, testing my patience and self control -_-
listening to my song of the day: empty me - jeremy camp
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Sunday, November 28, 2004
yeah the ushers family (high-school)
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Friday, November 26, 2004
how to earn respect as a leader?
--- trustworthiness - they have to trust you
--- a caring attitude - people don't care how much you know until they know how much you care
--- the ability to make hard decisions - for the team's best interest
went to TCT area this afternoon, and it's really not a good idea to search for eating places there when you're fasting haha... but yeah overall it's a fruitful trip.. got a list of places and even a map.
isn't that cute?
listening >> I wait for the Lord - Jeremy Camp
thinking >> he has a nice collection of songs....
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
if i can have a song to describe, that will be "what a difference a day made"
just within 24 hours, i have to think about totally diff things with what i thought of yesterday.
but all in all i just wanna praise Him---
1. God is really faithful
2. God has His great plan
3. Rely on God, not by my own strength
4. Focus... focus....
it will work out well somehow.
is this the end of my long holiday? it makes me wanna shout... hallelujah thank you Jesus...
^_^
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"There are no hopeless situations, there are only men who have grown hopeless about themselves"interesting quote from a book that i've been reading lately...
phew i've finished another mm project today and this time i did enjoy doing it.. though stayed till very late with peiru, we were like trying to play around with the music.
anyway i think all of us really need prayers.. anointing...wisdom..and strength as we have to trust God more...
for successful xmas ss, conference esp the opening..etc etc... not to mention life struggles... physical and mental strength, spiritually recharged..
are you tired?
listening >> kirara
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Sunday, November 21, 2004
it's the time for fun and fellowship cg outing again haha... actually i was so tired and got this "don't feel like doin anythin" feelin this morning, but as our leader thinks that we need more exercises (basketball, soccer, badminton...) so i dragged my feet and reached there very early.
started with badminton.. played for like 2 min with susi and she fell down.. kinda sprained her ankle i think.. really prayin that she'll be ok soon. then seeing veron and shufen played just made us discouraged and dun feel like playing liao ahhaha.. so we switched to uno cards.. ok i know uno is not an exercise... anyway to end it, those who have deprived childhood -including me went to playground and had great time there =)
swings are great....... just wanna go higher and higher... but with an empty stomach, plus doing it for loooong.. ended up feeling nauseous and low batt, oh well there's always a price to pay. but it was very fun..
all in all... i wanna thank God. sometimes you just have to do things that you don't really like, but it's the right thing.
and we have such great leaders and friends around us..yeah thank you.
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After years of expensive education, a car full of books, and anticipation
I'm an expert on Shakespeare, and that's a hell of a lot but the world don't need scholars as much as I thought
Maybe I'll go travelling for a year, finding myself, or start a career
i could work with the poor, though I'm hungry for fame, we all seem so different, but we're just the same
Maybe I'll go to the gym, so I don't get fat, all things are easy, with a tight six-pack
who knows the answers, who do you trust, I can't even separate love from lust
Maybe I'll move back home, and pay off my loans, working nine to five, answering phones
don't make me live for my friday nights, drinking eight pints and getting in fights
I don't want to get up, just let me lie in, leave me alone, I'm a twentysomething
Maybe I'll just fall in love, that could solve it all, philosophers say that that's enough
there surely must be more, ooh Love aint the answer, nor is work,
the truth deludes me, so much it hurts, but I'm still having fun and I guess that the key,
I'm a twentysomething and I'll keep bein' me I'm a twentysomething
Let me lie in, leave me alone, I'm a twentysomething
should change a bit.... i'm twentysomething but don't leave me alone.. there is something else and yup the answer is God, that's how you can have fun.. that's the key.
heheh nevertheless i like the song.
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Saturday, November 20, 2004
having a painful throat is not a good feeling, and it seems that i always have it most of the time on sat night. well what i can give thanks to God is i don't have it on weekdays =)
yet today was another great day of ss..
during "your love is beautiful", a particular person ehem was so excited with the percussion's solo which was very well done yup, and she kept woo-hoo.. kuai mun!!! erm.... hahaha...
i can't help but to share this also:
as i was inside nexus toilet (one of the cubicles) this afternoon, suddenly there's a crumpled tissue fell out of nowhere onto my head... i was like "eh???" and wondered... then the second crumpled tissue fell again onto me, followed by the third and fourth... -_- somehow i just knew who the culprit was... thanks shirls for giving me crumpled tissue rain. she was laughing like mad after that, actually the whole thing was very funny.. tsk tsk she's littering in nexus.
anyway it was amazing to see many crossed the line of faith today (1st ss), yeah all tiredness and everything just worth it man...
i can hold on.. as i always remember God's faithfulness
listening >> twentysomething - jamie cullum
playing my imaginary keyboard...
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Friday, November 19, 2004
i'm amazed with what i heard... should or shouldn't.. sometimes it's hard to decide
arrggghh nvm..
as i accompanied my uncle today and kept looking at guys clothes.. for hours.. i started to think which clothes is suitable for who and who and imagined it hahaha and it was quite enjoyable...
listening >> shirls... she's singing ain't no sunshine when she's gone with action.... and she looks disgusting -_-
then i bought something very nice that i really love.. but we have to give the best to others right? so i decided to give that to someone instead... will.. will... just need to wait for the right time hehe
thinking >> i have to focus.
listening >> shirls... now she's singing jamie cullum's what a difference a day made with action... and she still looks disgusting -_-"
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Thursday, November 18, 2004
i'm not ah-lian and i'm no fans of spore idol, but after i watched tonight's show, i think i have to say something.... ok i agree that sylvester aka sly is not good looking.. definitely... but i think he can sing. he has this nice and clear unique voice and yeah i enjoy listening to him (not looking haha) so it's quite mean to keep saying that the only reason he's still around cos of ah-beng and ah-lian supporters... geez pls.. how many ppl can sing better than him? can you? well i don't really care whether he or oli got in... though i don't like that oli girl, but i do think taufik deserves a place in final, unless everybody has hearing problem.
btw shirls' goin to vote for taufik hahaha.....
ok enough about the spore idol, went over to germs' place today.. thanks for the choc =)
and at last i got myself a new pair of round earrings after shirls lost the previous pair.. i always love round earrings.. feeling satisfied.
a thought >> lost somethin yet gained another thing.. cause and consequences.
i am struggling with gluttony. help...
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shirls & eelee looking vampirish in thailand ha-ha-ha...
anyway only the right side of the pic is cute hahahaa......
what can you do when you have so much free time??
-- sleep longer
-- clean up the room or even house
-- go through your old stuff, read the encouragement cards, laugh at old photos
-- exercise... jog, swim, go to gym
-- do some reading in library or borders
-- watch anime
-- go to nice places like esplanade or airport to just... enjoy your life
-- brush up your skills... guitar, drums whatever it is
-- have personal extended praise and worship at home
-- finish up the bible again
-- hang out with those who are free also... then can play mahjong together.. oops i mean worshipping God, meals, movies
-- do something to the blog
-- spend time with family (if they are here... not applicable for me though)
-- learn how to cook or bake cookies
-- do your ministry stuff...think and think... improve....
-- try to find a way to get out of this sounds fun but actually very boring life. ----pray.
it should end now.....
to roy: thanks for the speakers
to jus: thanks for the samurai7 updates
to junhuang : thanks for the ultimate soundtracks
^_^
thinking >> simply thai meal that i had... spicy is nice
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Monday, November 15, 2004
feeling good lately, have been sleeping very early and wake up early too.. started from sat morning, woke up at 6 am (not to watch anime, guys pls stop thinking i watch anime all the time) but to jog... yeah haha i think it's a breakthrough, haven't been doing that for years, felt so nice and refreshed before ss. but i don't know why still miscalculated the time, after a long shower and preparation plus breakfast, i still ended up late reaching nexus. so sorry....
ss was a great one, enjoyed the fun praise. jem brought friends and i think it was great.. i should start planning for xmas invitation already... at night had meeting with the hospitality team, got to know 2 ppl from uni side.. gonna be a great time working together, conference is coming soon, really fast....
yesterday was another funny day, played one round of pool with jem and the black ball was cursed haha just couldn't get it in no matter how. shufen's there too, very rare to see her off and spent time with her more hehe...
then met my uncle and shirls, we went to marche for nice dinner, though i was craving for jap actually. anyway it was great to see him, didn't change a bit. felt bloated at the end of the day and i was off to dream land even before midnight again haha...
thinking >> extra miles to show your love?
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Friday, November 12, 2004
susi gave me a word today: indecisive.
cos i just couldn't choose what to have for dinner hahah... nah more than that, i know myself, i hate to make decisions. not to mention changing my decisions all the time.
to justin: you owe me you owe me you owe me you owe me........
i had to walk in the rain this morning for your conf publicity... have to compensate me with ritter sports rum and raisin hahaha... anyway God blessed me with simon and pris who happened to be in nexus, made my job easier =)
i think i should wake up at 6 to jog tmw before ss
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004
had an enjoyable conversation about cockroaches and lizards with stan last night.. don't ask me why we ended up talking about these 2 creatures haha.. anyway all in all i feel glad =)
as i read the book of john again, suddenly i have some questions in my mind. true, we can never fully comprehend the bible. that's why it's interesting to read it over and over again right?-
thinking >> how God has sustained me
feeling >> light
listening >> you are holy - ps.
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
happy bday to susi and joel! hehe.. kinda belated actually...
lesson learnt on sat... cannot force myself.. with lack of sleep due to unableness to sleep on fri (wonder why), and didn't eat for one whole day, i got this terrible headache that led me to be in state of - half dead. couldn't enjoy the bday celebration also. but surprisingly at night i received sms for speedy recovery from someone that i least expected haha... but yeah thanks for all the concern really...
feeling much better, went to chijazz at chijmes on sun, they were good, me and susi really enjoyed ourselves...
met her again yesterday, cos it's her bday! mandy and her forced me to watch movie after i told myself not going to watch movie till jan... haha so much for self control, we watched cellular at the end.. but it was a good show, quite interesting. then we walked around, listened to music, dinner, shared ghost stories hahaha.... anyway it was fruitful yeah.. =)
listening >> Lord of the breakthrough
thinking >> i need a breakthrough
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Thursday, November 04, 2004
after wearing so many skirts, suddenly i realized that i've turned gentle hahaha... nah kidding.. it must be because i've been hanging out with my nephew and niece a lot...
anyway i was doing some self-soul-search yesterday, and i came to a conclusion that i have to change in my area of gentleness.. out of my mouth should be words of love, encouraging, affirmation and build one another up... well this is not the first time i came to this realization, i know it's hard not to suan ppl, it will be a breakthrough. and i don't even know how long i can hold on... ppl pls remind me okay =)
i'm going to reward myself with food. hungry...
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Monday, November 01, 2004
waa how to start this, ok left spore on friday. met susi first to check out the so called loreal sale at winsland house.. man it was nuts, seeing all the mad women trying to grab anything within their sights, well we gave up and left the place. then it was raining very heavily.. susi's umbrella didn't really help hahah we ended up as if we just came out from swimming pool, but it was really funny. anyway glad to see her and had a good talk about certain things.
this trip back is in fact quite enjoyable, one reason is cos my mom's here. well went out shopping with her, and she insisted on buying me lots of things that of course i won't reject hahah... went out with my niece just now also, she has really grown man.. talkin all about the school life and boys haha... but i still prefer her calling me jie jie rather than aunt.
anyway i was forced to cut my hair, and honestly i really hate my new fringe, but apparently my mom and all my relatives think it's nice, i wonder why.
few experiences - went out for a nice dinner with my mom and her friends and families. well basically in my pink blouse and skirt, and i just sat there quietly and smiled and smiled while i kept trying to figure out what they're saying (since they're communicating in teochew), made them come to a conclusion: "wah, your daughter is very quiet and demure."
hahahah.... wait until they see me play mahjong.... oops.. anyway i just smiled and smiled.
there's another person who was feelin awkward like me also though, one of the son's girlfriend. well i think eating with future in laws can make you lose appetite haha... she's same age as me, makes me wonder...
another one was even worse... my cousin's friend dropped by:
friend : who did she come here with? (refering to me)
cousin : alone
friend : oh she dares?
cousin : of course, grown up what
friend : oh, how old are you?
me : 22
friend : huh!?!? i thought about 16
me : -_-
blind... really blind... sigh...
anyway i've been eating and sleeping a lot... haha... still thinking about some stuff though. i'm glad that one of my niece asked me bout christianity, well i hope her mom won't kill me if i share more.
to pearline: happy bday! - 31st oct - i found a very interesting gift here hehehe.. talk to ya more when i'm back.
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