~~grace~~ ~ ~ g r a c e ~ ~


Sunday, May 30, 2004


just finished practising my guitar again, i think i enjoy it more and more now and thank God for those who commented that i've improved a lot hahah....

today's a sleepy day.. let's see... i slept during the pool game, on bus, while waiting for spt, right after spt.. i think it's the medicine (trying to find excuse for myself) anyway thanks joel for making my foot painful (finding scapegoat for myself again) haha i was so close to win the game sigh...

oh at last i managed to make some conversations with esmond today, well we talked about weather hahah a bit lame but at least it's still a conversation... anyway i think i don't want to play pool with him anymore, feeling very discouraged.. but the greatest challenge came when we're on bus, this lady brought a packet of durians in and sat right beside us!! geez i wanted to faint already, nauseous.. giddy.. wanted to vomit... yes that's how bad a durian can affect me.. by God's grace i could hold on for the quite long journey... alighted feelin half dead but still alive. maybe it's a test for my endurance.

thinkin >> ng millionaire hahahaha......

*livi* 11:27 PM

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Saturday, May 29, 2004


feeling very funny right now... all just mixed together

wanna comment bout today..i think mandy and dewen did a great job, though kinda last min preparation, 1st and 2nd ss were totally diff, but i think ppl really had fun... i'm amazed by bing quan's faithfulness and servanthood spirit also, and he's able to fix my broken kitchen tap too... wah God really gives all of us diff talents, for him is really craftmanship. anyway the SHE were great too haha, enjoyed the Jesus Is a lot.
all and all, one ESS has passed again. thank God for all my volunteers.. great job ppl!

next week is camp, that's how fast time flies... btw thanks shufen for the choc..
i think i'm gonna have some extended pnw now.

--end of blog today--

*livi* 10:15 PM

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Friday, May 28, 2004


"Woe to you.. For you clean the outside of the cup and the plate, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence."

Am I spiritually inauthentic?
Am I becoming judgmental or exclusive or proud?
Am I becoming more approachable, or less?
Am I growing weary of pursuing spiritual growth?
Am I measuring my spiritual life in superficial ways?

have been reading spiritual growth books and these captured my mind. true indeed, we may know a lot in mind, but do we have it in heart? we may look like it outside but do we really have it inside?

***

went for movie last night, well still can't understand why the title's the day after tomorrow since it got nothing to do with the day after tomorrow, should have just named the movie "freeze" well at least all of us who were watching felt that heh thank God i still got my jacket with me. overall not bad, but i'm expecting more from harry potter next week. anyway it ended very late, i think we all reached home around 130, could see how we all went online one by one to indicate that we've reached home safely haha...

thinking >> realizing that i'm not gentle at all, in fact none of the ywam girls is... but seriously who cares, we're all gentle in spirit. amen... hahah.....

*livi* 3:02 PM

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Wednesday, May 26, 2004


big claps for all the centerstage contestants! yesterday was really great, saw many ppl came with courage and talents to the audition. quite surprised with some ppl who really can sing well... hidden talents in church haha i think baowei should be very happy, more hope for the singing ministry.

actually i started the day terribly, i woke up to realize my left eye's badly swollen and i mean really bad.. hardly could open it. then i went to doc (thank God my dad happened to be around in town), well he didn't allow me to wear my lenses again at least for long period of time.. so went to optic immediately (half blind) and made specs for myself.. wah first time in my life i'm wearing specs, think about it i've been wearing lenses for more than 10 yrs liao... anyway still trying to adjust now, besides looking like a teacher now, i'm still quite giddy especially when trying to climb up or down the stairs. hopefully there won't be a case where i'll roll down the stairs...

ok anyway with the help of my new specs, i managed to help wj filmed down the auditions, great experience.. was feelin very drowsy cos of the medicine but surprisingly i could still stand thru-out hours of audition. can't wait for the 2nd heat!

thinking >> all the funny scenes that happened yesterday =)
and
how to take care of my health more..

*livi* 3:54 PM

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Sunday, May 23, 2004


i feel like i'm having rheumatism.. my whole body's really aching... argghh...
anyway thank God i could still wake up this morning even though very unwilling, saw a miracle haha someone came to cg very early (well because he supposed to chair) oops... but cg was cancelled well we're kinda stranded outside as no one unlocked the door so we just went ahead to east coast (thinkin whether it's really God's plan as my throat's painful and it's my roster to lead worship hmm).. anyway had lunch, then they cycled, played soccer while i enjoyed my peaceful time of sitting under the tree and chatting haha.. too bad today was not in fit condition to kayak or maybe i'd go ahead myself..

but actually the long walk to east coast was quite a good exercise, at least i perspired a lot and that made me feel much better well for that period... but now that i'm home and back to original state...proves that i really must have more outdoor activities aka exercises.. never realized that i'm so unsporty before...

thinking >> spiritual discipline
and
how foolish i was before having those stupid thoughts....

listening >> great adventure by steven curtis chapman (the beginning sounds like a war movie soundtrack o_0)

*livi* 7:50 PM

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Friday, May 21, 2004


am i glad... feeling so good today..

things learnt thru-out this week:

- don't take yourself too seriously
- grow in faith, patience and contentment
- make full use of opportunity
- spirit of excellence in all areas, not just ministry
- mistakes to be learnt, not to bring you down
- God always have his perfect timing.. He'll make a way
- last but not least... consistent joy

sorted my mind... almost forgot my motto of always be positive, look at the bright side, be joyful and give thanks in all circumstances. i'm a psalm cos God is with me!

haha have been talking to a few ppl these days, i was counselling my ex-sheep last night, really enjoyed the talk, after the whole talk he pointed out an area that i've changed compared to last time, and it's a good change haha it makes me ponder.. maybe he's right.. it's great when someone evaluates you, cos only those who care will speak to your life.

that's why--
ywam-ers.. we have a very good leader indeed.. thanks roy for speaking to my life =)
and thank you Lord!!!

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Spoken For - Mercy Me

Take this world from me
I don't need it anymore
I am finally free
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...

Covered by your love divine
Child of the risen Lord
To hear you say "This one's mine"
My heart is spoken for

Now I have a peace
I've never known before
I find myself complete
My heart is spoken for
Oh and I praise you
Oh and I worship you...

By the power of the cross
You've taken what was lost
And made it fully yours
And I have been redeemed
By you that spoke to me
Now I am spoken for

great song.....

***

after watching american idol last night i was talking to shirls

me: wenjun's a big fan of jasmine
shirls: (her eyes suddenly turned much bigger than usual) poon????
me: -_-"

oh well maybe she's stressed with the sermon preparation haha.....

*livi* 12:48 PM

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Monday, May 17, 2004


God has perfect timing indeed, sometimes it's amazing how things can just happen out of nowhere at right timing..

anyway at last i finished my ffx-2.. 98% can't believe it, but must be contented, did my best liao. let me recall these few days.. fri celebrated germs' bday, they did some wrestling thank God i was not involved hee.. sat celebrated shufen's belated bday... yesterday was one long day, feeling out of space due to lack of sleep (no one else to blame but myself),but at least i managed to catch some sleep in afternoon, or else i'd definitely fall asleep during spt...

suddenly i feel like sleeping now...yawnz

talked to jaslin last night, haven't been hearing from her for quite a while haha when she said got good news to tell me i thought she's getting married or something.. oops but was not... thinking back again how my life has been in hope, quite amazing, all the ppl that i've known, those who came and those who have left. and how i can end up in ywam now.. God's calling indeed.. i've been reading "the heart of the artist" lately(highly recommended for arts ppl/ministry leaders) great book, so many things to ponder and think thru.. we're all doing our best for God! actually i had many things going on in my mind on sat after ss, but God has answered and cleared my doubts now, it's all about being a servant, don't need to make things too complicated...

thinking >> God's faithfulness and providence
listening >>eternity
feeling >> grateful to Him
and also
thankful to hokage-sama for the talk last night, i really appreciate it =)

*livi* 8:37 PM

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Thursday, May 13, 2004


tears are powerful indeed.. especially when it comes from such a young and sweet person like jasmine trias...sigh i dun wanna comment further, today's AI is really unbelievable... some ppl just erm a bit blind i guess...

nevermind doesn't matter.... today God has worked powerfully in my life again! i think He sent me an angel at the immigration centre haha... anyway it's really amazing how God has been faithful and how i can keep holding on and faithful to Him too... i feel that my life is so blessed by Him indeed.

after that in afternoon caught a movie, well first plan was kill bill2 then became troy at the end we ended up watching van helsing haha not really my cup of tea but i think overall it's not bad.

last but not least... HAPPY BDAY SHU FEN!!!
you are such a blessing to all of us, and thanks for the choc + banana + cookies cream thick shakes this morning....it's unbelievably delicious >_< (not forgetting all the talk and encouragement you've given me)

^_^

*livi* 11:41 PM

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004


this morning i was so encouraged by a message sent by a great sister: "those who joyfully leave everything in God's hand will eventually see God's hand in everything" worry ends when faith begins..... couldn't agree more.
never doubt what God can do in us, to really rely on Him is one thing that sometimes we will tend to forget.. i feel so blessed to be in God's family =)

listening >> 1000 no kotoba (nice....)
thinking >> diana IS a great singer!
and
feeling sorry for ruining mr young's day by winning all the games today >_< oops


*livi* 11:23 PM

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Sunday, May 09, 2004


haiya i'm a lobster again, there goes my whitening skin process.. today's weather is just so unbelievably hot. the shelter at the place where they're all playing bb apparently was not really a shelter haha... anyway today woke up too early and reached too early for cg too, ended up having hot milo at the prata shop alone cos the door was still locked. heh but i enjoyed the cg a lot, wanna thank the girls for the prayer, especially shufen, encouragement do wonders indeed =)
anyway glad everything turned out well for my first time chairing in this cg hahaha....

spent time with meimei on the bus today, talked a lot bout our first encounters with guitar and learning guitar hehe a very interesting topic hmm i think i really wanna thank God for jason... well we did talk about other things too hahah but that i shall not mention... but i'm just wondering why she keeps saying i'm cute...?? heh i hope it's a compliment....

i'm gonna be shepherd-less for one month waaa susi take care ok and have fun back home!

thinking >>> june's mega team hope training hiehiehie
and
dave's nice guitar........

*livi* 9:53 PM

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Saturday, May 08, 2004


one of the most tiring ss for me ever.. feeling a bit dead now haha but fruitful! so many parents came today, i wished my mom's there too sigh.... anyway thank God for everyone, it's a wonderful ss!

thank God for my mom and dad too =)

*livi* 8:52 PM

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Thursday, May 06, 2004


Deeply In Love -- Youth Alive

In my life You've heard me say I love You
How do I show You it's true
Hear my heart, it longs for more of You
I've fallen deeply in love with You

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by You
Never will You and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with You

You and I, together forever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for You, grows stronger each new day
I've fallen deeply in love with You

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by You
Never will You and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with You

Jesus You've stolen my heart
I'm captivated by You
Never will You and I part
I've fallen deeply in love with You....

melted.... this is another great worship song >_<

*livi* 7:01 PM

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Wednesday, May 05, 2004


heh woke up today to find my room's flooding.. apparently the rain water happily entered thru the windows while i was still in cotton world... thank God my pc's still working even though it's just beside the windows.

last night went to the camp meeting, kinda feelin out of place cos the rest from adult side and it seems that they knew one another well. but at the end i realized that even though they're erm not that young anymore, they're quite funny and nice ppl, and they have lots of experiences that i can really learn. philip still drove some of us home too, well he's my neighbour haha lives just a few blocks away. and there's this one indonesian brother who knew me (met before at global community camp) wah either he has a good memory or i'm really forgetful --which i think is the latter-- i don't remember him at all oops...
anyway it's really amazing how so many diff kind of ppl can work together, without Jesus.. how can i know all these ppl, including you and you and you...

thinking >> if i'm not in "hope"
........... i think i'd rather think bout other things >> JB camp!!! and carnation flowers =)

*livi* 12:34 PM

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Sunday, May 02, 2004


double yawnz...... waa i'm so tired but today's really a great day! had a farewell at my place for nicole, it's just so funny.. well it meant to be a surprise for her but someone let the cat out of the bag so she came "pretending" to be surprised haha... but anyway she could hear what we're all doing and saying even before she stepped into the house, i think we need more training for conducting surprise party hahaha... ok cut all the fun, gifts, flowers, steamboat, bishi bashi, cards games, mahjong, etc (my house looks like an entertainment centre) it's indeed a fruitful day and i do hope it'll be a memorable time for nicole. didn't have much time to work together with her but one thing for sure is she's a great leader indeed..

oh hee thank God for wenjun for helping me to carry all the stuffs home last night after we went shopping for the food. about 10 ppl -> 1 trolley haha so funny seeing all those guys looking at enoki and veggie. oh enoki is a kind of mushroom by the way hehe

ok i need rest badly now... thank you Lord for this family that you gave me =)

*livi* 11:05 PM

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Saturday, May 01, 2004


it's may! cg404 is done... i still remember when we all just started on this, time really flies... thank God for all the schools pioneered, for those not yet it's ok too cos pioneering schools not only during cg404 time, but all the time amen? i think there will be celebrations everywhere tmw... not the result but the process...

^_^

today i came across a few things that really bring back memories.. went to bras basah complex to source out some gifts, passed this musical instruments shop that displayed pianica and xylophone wah i just stopped there and kept looking at the nice xylophone... haven't been playing that for years, i used to love it a lot during high school days. 3 yrs in drum-band -- 1 yr pianica, 2 yrs xylophone.. think back that's one of the reason i loved to go to school haha... anyway the thing costs about $250 hmmm i'd rather use my money for other things like guitar hahah....

the second flashback came from a cd shop inside popular.. the moment i stepped in, i heard nicholas gunn's music... wah i used to love his music a lot... even until now i still find them nice. well he's a flutist and his music kinda new-age music. i stayed in the shop for don't know how long, trying to imagine myself in some jungles, top of mountains or grand canyon. wah... it was great! i used to have his cd but it's long gone already (T_T)

anyway the trip was fruitful indeed, not just because of these flashback memories but i've found what i was looking for there hehe...

thinking >> sunday
and how God has brought me to where i am now... amazing...

*livi* 12:53 AM

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