Friday, April 30, 2004
thinking about a few things now--
--- how nice my dad is and what can i do to be a better daughter...
--- this conversation between some hs students on the bus about being gentleman, well apparently these guys think their girlfriends paying for their meals are great. gentleman = gentle = gay .... waa.... what is going to happen to the next generation guys, can't imagine it man.....
--- my kinda sprained ankle... a lady kinda stepped on my foot last night... can still feel the pain till now
--- fellowship...too many...too little... there.. but not really there yet...
--- feeling grateful to some ppl.. encouragements do wonders indeed =)
--- God answers prayers!
^_^
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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
feeling extremely tired now... did another long walk this afternoon but this time at tanjong pagar area, geez the place is just so confusing, i think God wants me to have more exercises... anyway when i was about to give up and planning to just take bus to another place ta-da i saw the road... wah sometimes when you really wanna find something you can't find it but when you stop looking, it will just pop up by itself...
today's fruitful day! before the long walk, went to esplanade library with susi for a while, and i think i should go there more often just to sit around and relax hmmm...
and then evening had dinner with jasmine, it's been a while liao.... actually without realizing it i've transferred for one month already. sometimes i think it's very funny, don't know how to describe also... anyway it's great to know that poly has more guys leaders now haha no longer one man among all the ladies... time's changed, but one thing that will never change there is everybody still zealous for God! =)
oh did filming again just now!! wah so exciting, tried out lots of new stuffs like the sound (which is a very good exercise for my arms) and also shooting some scenes haha... that's a good experience!
feeling >>> sleeeepy
thinking >> lots of stuffs, relationship without God in centre is hard to maintain...
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Sunday, April 25, 2004
thank God for sbstransit.com.sg!! today had cg outing at kovan, well they were playing basketball... and i've finally found the shorterst way to get there, after the previous experience of 1 1/2 hour journey. the weather's just so unbearably hot, and i think i felt like sleeping thru-out besides crapping around bout korean dramas and they've found out bout my secret hahaha oops... and guess what we had lunch at compass point 0_o ... for a second, i felt like moving back to punggol again.. but thank God the journey back home was not as far as i've thought.
thinking >> how powerful some medicine can be....
yesterday was really my worst experience ever during ss.. thank God for amy who helped me find medicine, for joe who helped me do my duty, for susi's prayer and for africa room -- the best room for sleeping haha... and for God's healing amen!
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Friday, April 23, 2004
thank God for wenjun.... today's a fruitful day indeed... first time i tried out filming haha not as an actress praise the lord, but as the video-man. it's a great learning, and sometimes when you see and really try doing it, you will really appreciate what they have been doing. not forgetting all the ppl acting, oh man this upcoming parents' day ss gonna be really funny. but we still have to remember that all these are not just about having fun, cos eventually what we're all doing is for God, and it's so great to just do anything to serve Him amen?
PS. i'm not snatching your rice bowl gerald, be secure ok hahaha and thanks for your guidance too
thinking >> chilli crab... hungry...
and
> did a long walk this morning, from paya lebar to and fro till macpherson, i think i will lose some weight again if i keep doing this kind of exercises hmmm....
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Thursday, April 22, 2004
..... my eyes are painful again feels like tearing all the time....
anyway had a great time of dinner and so called playing cards at veron's house just now haha it's our own girls' cg. that was really a lot of food, still feeling bloated now... and the good thing is i've finally found the shortest way (short-cut) to get there from my house, no more hours-journey hee... we had lots of sharing while shuping erm more like drowned in her own world playing guitar haha
speaking of guitar, my fingers are still bit painful, had a great time practising this morning... i have to improve man especially cos one of my dream is being able to play "what can i say"... great piece of music!
oh thanks to wenjun... i'm gonna fulfill one of my dream soon also hahaha.... it seems that i have a lot of dreams waiting for me =)
>>> it's kinda sad when man lives without dream, don't you think so?
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Monday, April 19, 2004
Give me Jesus - Fernando Ortega
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise
In the morning, when I rise, give me Jesus
Give me Jesus,
Give me Jesus,
You can have all this world,
But give me Jesus
When I am alone
When I am alone
When I am alone, give me Jesus
Give me Jesus,
Give me Jesus,
You can have all this world,
But give me Jesus
When I come to die
When I come to die
When I come to die, give me Jesus
Give me Jesus,
Give me Jesus,
You can have all this world,
You can have all this world,
You can have all this world,
But give me Jesus
a very nice and powerful song.... you can have all, i just need Jesus..... amen.
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feeling very beat right now but still wanna put down my thoughts... today felt like a looong day, woke up late but wasn't late for cg (thank God), had a great time together where we found out bout one another's chinese names which are very interesting well except for ppl like wenjun, shuping, shufen which their chinese names are erm quite obvious already haha... but thru-out cg i felt like tearing, my eyes were just so uncomfortable and painful and yes it's my own fault for not taking off my lenses again last night before i slept, was just too tired after the whole day in nexus plus a short visit to the jazz performance at esplanade which was good by the way....oh to continue my journal today, after cg, lunch, shopping.... went back home to sleep for a while and guess what, me and veron were overslept....waahh at the end took cab and thank God we were not late for SPT... anyway after the whole thing, with my last energy went for dinner together with sam, erm not only two of us but with a lot of ppl too haha we were so called gathering before he's going ns next wed, even though we cancelled the "kenny rogers" plan, kfc is a good place too cos what's important is the ppl, not really the place nor food... after that still could walk around to esplanade again (feeling dejavu...) wah but i could see everybody's having great fun man... felt like high school reunion hahah.... anyway take care sam! and thank God for pearline for organising this whole thing =)
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Friday, April 16, 2004
(T_T) i still can't believe ppl didn't vote for JPL, really no taste.....
nevermind.... hehe today accompanied veron for retail therapy.. we walked all the way to tanglin, quite a rare place for ppl to shop right? but it's a nice place and we saw quite lots of good stuffs there. i found that i'm easily tired when i shop, that's why i ended up sitting down in any chair or bench that i could see while veron continued on her cloth + zipper hunt. oh hei i'm not saying i'm old k, it's just that shopping is not really in my nature =) but it was fun today and i managed to fix my shoes....fruitful trip...
thinking >> no matter how tiring it is to serve God, when you see many ppl stepped into the kingdom, that will be more than enough...
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Thursday, April 15, 2004
what ministry do you want to join if you're given chance? hmmm very interesting question hahaha this is what jasmine asked us during combined wam meeting just now. she said that we'll be given chance to try out one day hahaha... i think we all had a very good laugh.. doing everything, anything for the kingdom, if i can help out - why not?
feeling >> joyful and refreshed....what a great worship time we had!
^_^
You Are a Peppermint Cappuccino
You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new.
However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like.
You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation.
You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please
What Kind Of Coffee Are You? Take This Quiz :-)
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Tuesday, April 13, 2004
feeling soooo relieved..... i can finally take some breath today >_<
spent my afternoon at borders, it's been like ages since the last time i really sat down there for hours to read books. after browsing at some magazines, decided to do some self improvement reading. a few learning bout team-work....
all team members wanna know this:
- tell me what you expect from me
- give me an opportunity to perform
- let me know how i'm getting along
- give me a guidance where i need it
- reward me according to my contribution
we must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools Martin Luther King,Jr
it's very important to work in a team indeed. you can't expect to do all by yourself, that's mission impossible! that's why we must really appreciate those working in the same team with you... we are here not to compete with one another, but to complete one another! amen.....
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Monday, April 12, 2004
staying at home be a housewife today haha just cleared up many things and cleaned the unbelievably dirty kitchen.. did some thinking last night about future, what will i be doing, where will i be in the next few years... we can't possibly stay like this forever.. but then whatever it is i pray that i will still be doing my best for the kingdom, God has His perfect plan for me =) we should just make the best of today now, it's true ah shouldn't waste any time.... pursue your dream!!
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
oh a miracle happened yesterday..... i played basketball.... hahaha... anyway it was quite fun even though most of the time i was just standing there, looking at the ball being passed around sigh i still prefer individual sports after all... that's why i decided to go jogging instead haha.. thanks veron for accompanying me, i do need some exercises once in a while but the place was quite ridiculously far from my house, can we have it near central hq next time? >_< *wink wink...
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Saturday, April 10, 2004
Why – Nichole Nordeman
We rode into town the other day,
just me and my daddy.
he said I'd finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course, was not quite as wild.
We heard a crowd of people shouting,
and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes.
So I said, Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows.
Daddy please, can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said He was stronger than all of those guys;
Daddy, please tell me why.
Why does everyone want Him to die??
Later that day, the sky grew cloudy,
and Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy.
Boy was he right, but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide.
So after he left, I had to find out.
I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill
where I knew men had been killed,
and I heard a voice come from the cross.
And it said, Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.
Father please, can't you do something?
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size.
Father, remind me why.
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why??
My precious son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming.
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know,
but this dark hour, I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry.
The power in your blood destroys all of the lies;
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look, there be love, see the child
trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why...
she is why you must die.
*****
what is the real meaning of easter, tmw will be the day where you really have to set aside time and think... it's not just about the celebration and getting ppl crossed the line, but it's for our own reminder also. how significant it is that Jesus died in cross for y o u and m e...
i always love saturdays, but today's a very special day indeed, first ss was overwhelming, people just kept flowing in and in till a point that they all must sat at the staircase, the drama was hilarious, i think i distracted some ppl by laughing too loud oops... the dance was erm very astro boy or should i say ultraman haha but it was great, susi you really amazed me, you can be the para para queen hee hee...... had a great praise time.... but the greatest part was when many hands were lifted up to receive our king to their lives! it was really amazing, was very touched with all their responses. today is the day indeed... i really pray that they will discover the joy of knowing and serving God more as time goes... amen! indeed i found there's no greater joy than serving God, even though now i'm feeling exhausted but it's purposefully tired =) i think we were all relieved man when the 2nd ss ended haha.... next big project >> xmas 04 wah..... jia you!
feeling >> filled with joy.... today's a great day!
PS. erm i dun think u're reading this but yup happy bday davin.. couldn't affirm you just now cos really got nothing to say... well i think you're a good brother? hahaha... will know more as time goes....
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it's 1 am in the morning and confirmed about 300 visitors (more or less) will be coming to easter ss tmw......waaaahhh God i need wisdom... it's gonna be very crowded and overflowing... not enough gifts... but set aside all these, it's so powerful indeed and i believe there will be great revival tmw, many will definitely step into God's kingdom. wah....am very amazed... God is moving.....this is the day!isfkfksxjkfhwijsdkjcndjkcnjdgtxfuihgjknkvnjxkzfksnf * praying for all the ministers, pastorally and programming team... we shall do our best..... amen.
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Friday, April 09, 2004
2004 is a year full of germs well at least for me.... accchooo.....am down with terrible flu again, for the dun know how many times since jan... well i'd better say sorry first before u get it from me....
my dad's here again, and we had a nice - ^ really nice^ dinner just now at sukothai, they have a good service there, hmmm recently i found myself paying more attention to customer services, from market all the way to big shops, hawker to good restaurants, i guess this team hope really gets to my blood liao... haha...
feeling & thinking >> was down then up, God is great and He shall have His way....
terrible flu and eyes irritation..... so uncomfortable (T_T)
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
indeed....!! amen......
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Thursday, April 08, 2004
thank God for you....zyann... amelia...and 2 more that i'm sorry i don't know your names *oops... for working so hard for the key chains... anyway they're very well done! you know God really can amaze me...i was just thinking how on earth am i gonna get a new gift supplier last sat morning when He answered my prayer right in the evening by sending these girls to my table at starhub hahhaa...... ehem anyway just now went out shopping with zyann, she really amazed me and susi too haha... i think she's very innocent yup that's the word, makes me and susi look old sigh..we're roughly 10 yrs older than her can you believe that? but it's ok cos serving God makes you young in heart and those who are above 21 will say amen with me?
^_^
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Tuesday, April 06, 2004
amnotbluramnotbluramnotbluramnotbluramnotbluramnotbluramnotbluramnotblur *trying to deny myself* sigh think back again maybe i am... but it's ok cos God loves blur people too.....
anyway today i went down to joochiat for some tape learning, this ron kaufman guy was very good indeed, i was expecting something boring...yawnzzz or even fell asleep, but he managed to capture my full attention for almost 2 hours... well basically he's sharing some customer ss tricks and principles with lots lots of funny and logical examples... what a learning indeed.... it reminded me of my own experience with glass house fish and co, they have a very good service there *highly recommended* hee....
seeing the invisible, attempting the impossible!
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Sunday, April 04, 2004
enlightened today... all along i had this wrong mindset about being free (as in timing) in ywam.. but after today's spt, jasmine's teaching really spoke, it's not just about doing ministry but i have to develop myself more and the team too, not just continuing from what shuzhen left behind, but to put even greater things ahead.. i can see how everybody has been working hard in all different ministries..so many things to do... i think when it's really God's calling, there's no such thing called boring, even though we are not really involved in evangelism but our ministries are fulfilling too, after all we're all doing things unto God. i'm proud to be called to this new ground as i was proud to be part of poly but more to it i'm more proud to be part of God's kingdom!!
^_^
today's very fun, well i went to the dmm, but it's very interesting cos the dmm is for everybody, i guess it's because all of us are members, no new believers to talk about haha... anyway let me recall what happened... ate a piece of super sweet and cheesy cheese cake, bullied by the guys a few times (T_T) sigh.... why do they like to bully indonesians?? we are not bluuurr... i really can understand susi's feelings now haha but anyway it's ok... we still love you guys... * rain background * i can see my dark future.....
oh celebrated gerald's bday... i'm quite amazed with the way they affirmed him hmmm... then me, susi, veron and baowei went back to my house to watch Jesus' vcd, i think we commented a lot on that, but who can blame us, after watching passion, this Jesus' vcd looks so unreal... anyway after that we were just so called resting our body and mind haha veron was happily hugging benny and slept (my benny is really fully utilized), baowei was quite engrossed with his ps2 games that seems to be quite scary but cool, while me and susi were just sharing some stories from A-Z. it was raining, so comfortable... thank God we still remember to go to spt hahah.... anyway i'm glad to fit in fast hee...
thinking>>> easter day ss... it's gonna be amazing!!!
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Saturday, April 03, 2004
today is a historical day, after long planning, praying and hard work, at last the poly ss came to pass. could see how everybody's excited and the seats were filled quite to the back, well definitely broke 150 today! hee so happy for all of them, there are still more to come, more things to do =)
well just to clear up the misunderstanding for one last time, i'm not transferring to family group 0_o i'm amazed that someone really took jasmine's joke seriously hahaha..... anyway i'm officially a ywamers now, yah cos am taking over team hope.. it's a new ground, lots of differences but i'm cool with it, cos after all it's about serving God, and serving God is fun! went to the cg last wed, had fun too, thanks everyone for the welcome and the nice fudge choc hee it's heavenly...
oh commenting bout the passion.. we went to watch together yesterday, sat at first row, neck a bit sprained... but that's not the point... i think it's a powerful movie, well not so in detail and can be confusing for those who never read the bible, but i found all the scenes of the torturing and crucifixion was ... indescribable... it made me think a lot of human ugly side, why are they doing this? why are we doing this to Him? i think whatever that we're facing now is nothing compared to that, and now that we are reminded again, what are we going to do about it?? hmmm....
thinking >> it's hard to clean up all the party poppers.. hee...
feeling >> exhausted and sleepy....zZz
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